Growing up queer, bullied and abused in a heavily religious community, a man tries and to change his sexual orientation through prayer, but as he pieces his life together and heals past harms, tragedy and misfortune raise more questions than answers.

Today’s episode featured Ransom. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can email at Ransomnotes24@gmail.com

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Jason Blalock

Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault of a minor, incest, suicidal ideation, religious trauma, drug use, death, explicit language

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