*Content Warning: self harm, physical abuse* Anonymous YouTuber Apostate Aladdin shares his story of becoming a man in an environment that used fear to keep boys and girls and men and women separated. This intense fear that men need to be kept away so they don’t act on their uncontrollable desires, left him feeling scared, targeted, alone and shameful. Here we learn about purity culture through a different lens and how he was able to overcome his fear of interacting with women so he could create positive friendships and relationships.

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Live episodes together where we discuss the similarities and differences between Islam and Mormonism:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

Find Apostate Aladdin
YouTube: @apostatealaddin
IG: @apostatealaddin
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• Why AA wears a mask and has a pseudonym
• Specifically AA's experience & not every Muslim's experience
• Apostate as a derogatory term
• What kind of interactions were allowed with the opposite sex
• A young AA getting in trouble for liking a girl
• TW: CA- What happened when AA was caught texting a girl
• Vague rules within the purity culture he experienced
• Even young boys weren't allowed certain places alone
• What these restrictions did to the minds of boys and men
• The nightmare of puberty
• What happened when AA realized masturbation was considered a sin
• The pilgrimage- feeling unworthy
• Was dating allowed?
• Does the hypersexualizaiton create odd turn ons?
• When did AA start pushing the boundaries?
• When did AA begin to have healthy interactions with women?
• What did AA find about Islam that he didn't resonate with?
• Did he convert his GF to being a Muslim?
• Where did AA land in his spirituality and relationships?

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*Content Warning: Many mentions of physical abuse & sexual abuse* Tricked into moving to Iraq at age 14, Ellaf was separated from her mother and forced into a chiId marriage by her father who felt she was too much of a burden to raise. Ellaf’s husband was even more controlling than her father and knew that he could get away with hurting her in many ways, because she was alone in an unfamiliar country and didn’t know the culture or the language. Forbidden to use birth control, she had 3 chiIdren before she was 21 years old and after years of suffering, courageously stood up to both her husband and father and got away. This is her story of perseverance and victory against all odds.

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*Content Warning: Domestic Violence, SA, CA* Determined to fight for the human rights of the oppressed, Yasmine Mohammed speaks out and shares her experiences with Islam extremism. Her mother forced her to marry a terrorist and it wasn’t until she fell pregnant with a daughter that made her realize she had to escape in order to secure her a better life. In search of freedom, she also found her voice and now she platforms countless other people who share their experiences.

Find and support Yasmine!

Her book: “Unveiled: How Western Liberals Empower Radical Islam”
The Yasmine Mohammed Podcast
YouTube: @yasminemohammedxx
Non-Profit: Free Hearts Free Minds
Website: https://www.yasminemohammed.com/
IG @yasmohammedxx

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• Why is critiquing Islam is such a sensitive subject?
• What are some of the dangers of speaking out against Islam?
• Muslims vs the Islamic religion as a whole
• Yasmine on the current situation in Gaza
• TW: R*pe, SA- prisoners of war
• How does this relate to Islamic doctrine?
• The nuance of Islam vs Palestine
• Some of the good that has happened
• How Yasmine’s mother got more fundamentalist
• Forced to marry a member of Al-Qaeda
• What were some of the rules Yasmine had to follow as a chiId?
• TW: CA & SA- What was her stepfather like outside of his religious adherence?
• Did Yasmine ever fully believe in Islam?
• TW: DV& r*pe- Yasmine's first week of marriage
• How did racism effect Yasmine's ability to get help?
• Yasmine gets pregnant and has a daughter
• How University opened her mind
• What was the deconstruction process like for Yasmine?
• Creating your own values and morals after leaving a high demand religion
• How did Yasmine's daughter impact her drive to change their lives?

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**Content Warning: DV, rape, SA** Tia Levings discusses her dark reality in Christian fundamentalism, with evangelical patriarchy and religious trauma. Having appeared in the Amazon docu-series, Shiny Happy People, and written a harrowing memoir, A Well-Trained Wife she reveals how she had to save herself and her family and details the ways that extreme views can manifest in a marriage.

Recruited into the fundamentalist Quiverfull movement as a young wife, Tia Levings learned that being a good Christian meant following a list of additional life principles––a series of secret, special rules to obey. Being a godly and submissive wife in Christian Patriarchy included strict discipline, isolation, and an alternative lifestyle that appeared wholesome to outsiders. Women were to be silent, “keepers of the home.” But in the patriarchy, a woman with opinions is in danger, and eventually, Tia faced an urgent and extreme choice: stay and face dire consequences, or flee with her children.

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Pre order Tia’s book: A Well-Trained Wife

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IG: @tialevingswriter
The Anti-Fundamentalist

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• How Tia was raised that led to falling prey to her husband
• Did Tia's parents read her book?
• Nightmarish doctrine Tia learned in her youth
• All that's needed is a submissive and willing spirit
• You will drown in a lake of fire if you are not pleasing to God
• Selling the patriarchal movement to women- what that literally means
• Not allowed to have anything for yourself as a woman
• TW: Domestic ab*se- calling it a "correction"
• How Tia emerged from the isolation through secret online communication with women
• What it was like being a mother within this ab*sive reality
• Tia decided to escape when she saw how it was hurting her chiIdren
• Tia's escape story
• How Tia's children handled it all
• When did Tia feel safe enough to deconstruct and begin healing?
• Advice for someone going through a similar situation

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Daniella grew up in the Children of God and Mike in Scientology. Together they discuss ways that the military, of which they were both in for many years, is cultic and their differing perspectives.

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Find Mike!
YouTube: @mikebrown101
Mike’s Interview: “How Scientology Almost Killed His Elderly Mother”

Find Daniella!
IG: @daniellamyoung_
TikTok: search #groupbehaviorgal
Website: https://www.uncultureyourself.com/
Amazon: "Uncultured: A Memoir"
Previous episodes with Daniella
“Her Horrific Childhood in the CHILDREN OF GOD S*x Cult ft. Daniella”
“Her Parallels Between Children of God S*x Cult & the US Military ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young”
“Escaping CHILDREN OF GOD, the Aftermath (ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young)”

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• Daniella's cult backstory
• Mike's cult backstory
• When Daniella redefined what a cult was after learning about non Christian cults
• Comparisons Mike drew between Scientology and the Military upon joining
• Daniella's culty comparisons of the military and Children of God cult
• Difference in cultic experiences based on gender
• Mike's thoughts on r*pe culture in the military- Daniella responds
• Difficulties of a misogynistic environment
• When the "process" works
• When "the process" to protect women doesn't work and why
• Combat barbie and her non-regulation hair
• Is the Military a cult? Daniella's perspective- Mike's perspective
• Group motivation in cult think
• The issue with talent management
• Is the fix giving back individualism and identity?
• Change? Mike says why the military isn't like a cult
• Daniella's differing opinion on camaraderie
• Mike acknowledges why Daniella had a different experience than him
• Does the military HAVE to be like a cult for max effectiveness?

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Cait West was completely under her father’s rule down to all her decisions. She was told he would even make the biggest decision of her life for her— who she was going to marry. She was gr**med to be a submissive wife under the patriarchy movement and stay-at-home daughters movement. Her homeschooling was completely unregulated and not much attention was paid to her education, because her sole purpose was to be a mother who eventually belonged to her husband. Terrified that anything less than strict obedience would land her in the fiery depths of Hell, she felt she had no choice but to go along with it well into her 20s. This is how she gained her independence and escaped that lifestyle.

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Find and Support Cait!
Buy her book Rift: https://www.caitwest.com/book
Website: https://www.caitwest.com/
Substack: https://caitwest.substack.com/
IG: @CaitWestWrites
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/caitwestwrites/
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• What is the patriarchy movement and where does it come from?
• What were some of the gender roles her dad believed in?
• How isolating was Cait's childhood?
• How did Cait's religion focused education impact her life?
• Did Cait ever yearn for a better education while being homeschooled?
• How did Cait's fear begin and impact her life?
• How did Cait's religious upbringing view mental health?
• Cait's scrupulosity and taking communion
• Cait learned s*x ed from movie reviews
• Feelings for men outside of a courtship
• What was courtship like for Cait?
• What is the Stay-At-Home Daughter Movement?
• What was Cait's parents' relationship like?
• How did Cait's dad become their church's courtship expert?
• When did Cait start to understand what she actually wanted?
• How did Cait's husband help her find her way?
• What was it like for Cait to discover her sexuality?
• What are some resources for those who are struggling?
• What was Cait's first

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Isolated in a cult within a cult within a cult, Ashley was completely sheltered from the outside world. From infancy she was labeled as unruly and even demon-possessed. Determined to break her as a toddler, then later brag about it, her pastor grandfather took it too far. She would be forced into submission and gr**med to be a “stay-at-home daughter” until her father transferred authority to her betrothed husband. This is how she accidentally escaped the prison in her mind.

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Find and support Ashley!

https://www.ashleyeaster.com/
IG @iamashleyeaster
Twitter: @ashleymeaster

Cults Hidden In Plain Sight- FREE Ebook:
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Courage 365: A non-profit for ab*se survivors:
https://www.courage365.org/

Watch Ashley’s TEDx Talk: Why You Could Be Vulnerable To A Cult | Ashley Easter
https://youtu.be/eDvhN7rSLK4?si=uv9J4CYkuTZZVx3p

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• Ashley's IFB background
• IFB vs Southern Baptists
• Drum Beats and Racism
• Was there scripture to back their racism?
• What types of music was Ashley allowed to listen to?
• What it was like being isolated in the IFB home school
• The Patriarchy Movement
• What is the 200 year Quiverfull plan?
• How did submitting to these types of men affect Ashley?
• Ashley's grandfather locks her in the basement
• Ashley's trauma responses
• Starting the blog, The Stay-At-Home-Daughter
• Ashley's relationship with her mom
• How many siblings did Ashley have?
• What was Ashley's big goal?
• What was courtship like for Ashley?
• "I kissed dating goodbye"
• Were courtship relationships transactional?
• What was Ashley's breaking point?
• How Ashley's husband held space for her
• How is Ashley doing now?

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Scientology doesn’t believe in the young. They teach that they are trillion year old beings in small bodies. Therefore, they are not treated developmentally correct. Neglected, exploited for work and severely mistreated, they suffer the most in this organization. Serge Del Mar tells his story of growing up in Scientology and his advocacy work to make people wake up and listen to the lost souls who are begging silently for help.

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Find Serge on Social!
YouTube: @literallyserge

IG @literallyserge

If you need help escaping Scientology, visit:
https://www.theaftermathfoundation.org/
https://sptvfoundation.org/

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