Terra Holbrook is the founder of TerraVista Retreats in Idaho, a unique healing space dedicated to helping individuals recover from trauma, addiction, and other life challenges. With over two decades of experience as a therapist, Terra specializes in trauma-informed care, focusing on guiding people through the often hidden layers of trauma that can affect every aspect of their lives.

I want to share that I personally attended Terra's program, and it was a profound experience. We begin with Terra briefly explaining her work and how she came to open TerraVista Retreat in Idaho. Then, we dive into the topic of trauma. Trauma is something everyone experiences, and it's really about how we respond afterward when we can't fully resolve the events or experiences we've endured.

In today's episode, we'll explore the concept of hidden trauma—what it is, how it manifests, and how it can be addressed and healed. Terra brings a wealth of knowledge and experience to this topic, and I'm excited for her to share her insights with all of you.

• [03:57] I went through Terra's program, and the experience was profound.
• [05:17] Terra shares a brief overview of her background and what led her to start TerraVista Retreats.
• [08:47] Everyone experiences trauma.
• [09:37] Trauma is really what happens to us after the event where our body freezes in the state of fear, pain, or dysregulation and what we do afterwards to compensate for not being able to come to some resolution about the thing or things that happen to us.
• [10:09] Hidden traumas are those things that we respond to every day, have reenacted, and don't even understand we've created a life that reenacts what's going on because we're trying to master the thing we couldn't back then and so our behaviors, our beliefs, the way that we respond, our relationships suffer from these events.
• [11:12] Trauma is a stripping of safety.
• [11:37] Terra shares an example where she picked a fight every time her husband was about to go on a trip. She took a look at her discomfort and remembered that her dad had died on a business trip when she was 17.
• [13:10] Pushing him away to not feel the absence of his leaving was a hidden trauma.
• [18:01] A lot happens at the retreats including getting vulnerable.
• [18:37] Tim shares one of his most traumatic childhood experiences. This was also when he started his path to drinking and drugs.
• [22:50] When you start remembering things that you have forgotten about is when you start doing the work.
• [28:23] So much of the work that we do is going back to those parts of our younger self.
• [34:07] These regulation practices rewire the brain and help create safety in parts that didn't feel safe.
• [36:14] The work that Terra does feel sacred to her.
• [37:19] We talk about the common misconceptions people have about trauma.
• [39:07] One of the most difficult traumas to work with is when there's a miss attunement with the child's needs and what the parent sees in the child.
• [41:03] At TerraVista people get the tools they need to rescue themselves.
• [44:47] We set ourselves up for protection from a thing that happened many years ago. We set up barriers, and we become boundaryless. We end up choosing people in our lives that will reenact that lack of safety or whatever the lack is.
• [46:57] After doing the work, the chaos doesn't feel good anymore.
• [48:38] When someone gets clean and sober, all of the habits have to change. It takes time for the brain to settle in a place and reboot.
• [53:09] Signs and symptoms of trauma include relationship issues that don't seem resolvable. Such as choosing the same type of person over and over again.
• [54:03] We need to understand that the answer is inside of us.
• [01:00:20] The pure essence of anger is a motivator.

Links mentioned in this episode:

• Camelback Recovery
• I Love Being Sober YouTube
• Terra Holbrook
• Contact Terra (208) 515-6013
• TerraVista Retreat Facebook
• Gabor Mate
• The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom

“You will believe without a doubt, you will achieve what others doubt.” That is a quote from my guest today, Tony Grebmeier.

Tony built up a multimillion-dollar business in ShipOffers, which was ranked as one of Inc. 5000's fastest-growing private companies in the U.S., all while battling addiction with drugs and alcohol.

Tony's determination and resilience led him to not only build a successful business but also to become a beacon of hope and motivation for others. As the host of the Be Fulfilled Podcast: The Real Stories Behind Success, Tony has spent six seasons redefining what it means to be truly successful.

In today's episode, we'll dive into Tony's story, exploring the highs and lows of his journey. Whether you're on a personal or professional path to fulfillment, this conversation is packed with valuable insights and inspiration to help you climb your own success mountain.

• [04:17] One of Tony's best gifts from recovery was learning he has no control over other people's opinions.
• [05:12] When Tony was drinking, he had no idea that people could change and go into recovery.
• [09:07] Tony shares the circumstances of going to his first meeting which led to 15 years of recovery.
• [10:05] He focuses on figuring out what he can do today to be 1% better and that's all that matters. It's easier to be honest and truthful.
• [11:42] Tony was 2 years old the first time he drank.
• [13:51] When he was 36 years old, it was the time to make a change in his life.
• [19:04] His first 90 days of sobriety included calling his sponsor and going to meetings everyday. He missed a couple days of not checking in, but he made his meetings and did his work.
• [20:41] He needs one thing to focus on. No drinking, no drugging.
• [23:08] Tony talks about battling addiction while building ShipOffers.
• [28:34] It's our job to put the initiative in so we don't have to worry about how it works out.
• [33:06] When life throws Tony a curveball, he starts with gratitude.
• [37:26] Ego. Tony says that when egos are in play there's nothing else going on.
• [41:27] Fulfillment is everything to Tony.
• [42:01] He also has a book coming out called, The Power of Fulfillment. True empowerment and fulfillment comes from identifying what I want to be today when I wake up in the morning.
• [48:43] Serving and getting into action is one of the greatest gifts.
• [50:51] The Be Fulfilled Master Class is all the work that Tony's been doing. It's free, and it's mostly about taking ownership of your life.

Links mentioned in this episode:

• Camelback Recovery
• I Love Being Sober YouTube
• Tony Grebmeier
• Tony Grebmeier (303) 999-5007
• Be Fulfilled Podcast
• Tony Grebmeier Facebook
• Tony Grebmeier LinkedIn
• ShipOffers
• Be Fulfilled

I’m happy to introduce you to Amy Moore, a beacon of hope and transformation in the world of addiction recovery. Amy's personal journey from struggle to sobriety ignites her passion for healing others. Her heart-centered approach turns interventions into acts of love, promoting family unity and personal growth through education, group therapy, and compassionate support.

When she's not in the therapy room, Amy embraces life and nature with open arms. Whether she's hiking with her family, snowboarding, or capturing the beauty of a sunset, she finds joy and renewal in the great outdoors. A cornerstone of her recovery community, Amy shares her story and wisdom through speaking engagements and podcasts, spreading hope and offering a roadmap to long-term sobriety.

Listen in as we learn more about Amy's inspiring journey and her mission to bring light to the lives of those battling addiction, one heart, one family at a time.

• [04:07] Amy grew up on a farm in rural Colorado. They had a wood burning stove and used an extension cord for electricity.
• [05:18] Her dad was also drunk every single day. He was violent and came back from treatment even angrier.
• [07:09] She had a rough childhood and took care of her siblings. Cooking is her love language.
• [10:41] Amy wanted to be the best daughter while on her healing journey.
• [12:29] It's been great getting to know her mom after all of the previous trauma.
• [12:53] Amy was never going to drink and do drugs. She left home at 14 and was pregnant at 15.
• [14:02] She gave birth at 16 and got divorced at 17.
• [14:16] She was living in a program for teenage mothers and going to college.
• [15:02] A guy she was dating talked her into having a couple of drinks.
• [16:33] She couldn't stop drinking and she even started doing drugs.
• [21:45] She was out of control and even got into an accident with a bunch of police cars.
• [23:13] She lost custody of her daughter while she was in jail after this incident.
• [24:42] She was depressed and her mom recommended rehab.
• [25:09] When she was 21, she checked herself into the Salvation Army 6-month program.
• [27:38] She completed the Salvation Army program and still goes back and checks in once in a while.
• [30:29] Amy talks about how she was inspired to become an interventionist.
• [31:39] She did her first intervention in 2005. In 2012, she was offered an opportunity to train as an interventionist. She worked with this trainer for 3 years.
• [36:15] If a family is met with resistance by a loved one who they want to get better, an interventionist might be able to help.
• [37:33] Amy operates in a love first model of intervention.
• [38:12] Intervention is so the family can start healing and coming back together. Success around intervention is starting the conversation so that that person has no other choice but to go get help, eventually.
• [39:02] Reminding someone how much they're loved and how much of an impact they have on the world is powerful in getting the prefrontal cortex turned back on.
• [40:44] The prefrontal cortex is the thinking part of your brain. Alcohol and drugs have the ability to shut that off. Getting the brain to start working and being a participant in making decisions and being part of a plan is a beginning.
• [45:25] Amy shares a transformational story.
• [47:38] Know you're not alone and that there are people out there who really do care.
• [50:59] We learn about love meditation. Amy also says a lot of prayers.
• [52:58] Amy's morning routine is a 10 on the importance scale.
• [54:26] Amy wants to get the word out to everybody about resources and mental health.

Links mentioned in this episode:

• Camelback Recovery
• I Love Being Sober YouTube
• Amy Moore Intervention Specialist
• Amy Moore LinkedIn
• Amy Moore on Instagram
• Contact Amy Moore (303) 915-7072

I have a deeply moving and inspirational story to share with you. My guest, Todd Belfer, has been on a remarkable journey of transformation and healing. Todd has been clean and sober for over two decades, successfully overcoming his struggles with drugs and alcohol. However, his path took an unexpected turn a little over a year ago when he faced the unimaginable pain of his son’s suicide. This profound loss led Todd to explore a realm he was once firmly against—psychedelics.

In this episode, Todd will share how this exploration has significantly impacted his life and recovery. Despite his initial reservations, Todd now advocates for the therapeutic potential of psychedelics, especially in dealing with grief and trauma. We discuss his journey to sobriety, the events that led him to reconsider psychedelics, and how these substances have helped him cope with his loss without jeopardizing his sobriety.

Join us in this complex interplay between addiction recovery and psychedelic therapy. We’ll talk about Todd’s experiences, from his initial concerns to his transformative sessions with psychedelics. He provides insights into how these experiences have helped him heal, why he believes psychedelics can be safe and beneficial for those in recovery, and what advice he has for others considering this path. This conversation promises to be both heartfelt and enlightening, offering hope and new perspectives on healing and recovery.

• [05:30] Todd shares how he married his drinking buddy. They had fun, traveled, and drank together. When his wife got pregnant, she looked at him differently and decided to leave.
• [07:10] Todd went to AA and loved it. Each meeting he let his guard down.
• [11:04] He slowly began to accept things and started doing the work of getting sober.
• [14:04] Todd was a staunch believer in sobriety at all cost.
• [15:01] He was in so much pain after his son passed. His wife at the time recommended trying ketamine or MDMA to deal with all of the grief and pain he was going through.
• [16:04] He went on a journey with her and connected with his son. It was a healing 5-hour experience where he felt love and connection.
• [20:20] The psychedelics really help the struggle of separating the ego and forgiving ourselves.
• [21:26] He also had an extremely profound hypnotherapy session.
• [25:33] Todd can wholeheartedly say that psychedelics aren't a gateway to relapsing.
• [28:48] Psychedelics gave Todd peace and comfort.
• [30:14] Psilocybin wasn't as profound for him as MDMA and ketamine.
• [32:02] Drugs and alcohol numb you out, where psychedelics bring you closer to your feelings.
• [36:42] Psychedelics have increased his ability to connect with people on another level.
• [42:01] Psychedelics aren't recommended for people new to recovery. Do it under professional care as an internal journey to expand.
• [47:54] Sobriety, 12 step recovery, and psychedelics and a professional manner is a beautiful combination that can heal so many people.
• [51:59] Trying a psychedelic experience in a spiritual and professional manner could release you from who you think you are in the life that you're living.

Links mentioned in this episode:

• Camelback Recovery
• I Love Being Sober YouTube
• The Laundry List Podcast
• Todd Belfer (602) 332-8974