This started with my step sister’s wedding. It was beautiful. The love was real.

I drove home a little teary. That heave in the chest kind of full. Not because it was not beautiful. It was. I was happy for them. I was also wondering if I will find a love like mine. I know my love will look different. I will not have two hundred people at a reception. It will be small. It will be different. Quiet. Intentional. The size will fit my truth.

Later that weekend, while recovering, I found some Alan Watts. Not a revelation. A partial echo in a hallway I have been building for years. I do not buy all of it. There is fluff. Under it there is a backbone I can use. I take what lands and leave the rest. What follows is mine.

https://www.lostintxtlation.com/awakening-without-hooks-my-internal-notes-after-a-wedding/

Modern dating is fantastic if people knew how to use it properly. But alas, 98% of the population prefers to follow the road traveled to get to Point B from A. So finding someone who uses it in a unique way is often hard to find. And before you get upset that I am putting people into a bubble of generic, scroll through profiles, count the words: “sarcasm, travel, family, friends, and iPhone” Everyone is a fucking professional rock climber, with 1 million frequent flier miles, with stock in lulu lemon and sunsets.

Tell me something I don’t know already, and I get interested. Tell me your day wasn’t “Good, thanks” or that more than “nothing much” is up and you have my attention. So while yes I do think bringing a flower to a date is quite nice, I do not believe we have to go back in time to get he most out of the world in front of us. But we do need to embrace things out of our comfort zone to allow these apps to work and integrate the benefits of traditional methods for a beautiful hybrid.

https://www.lostintxtlation.com/mycomicreleifisonvacation/

If you are looking for the guy who is mysterious, I may not be your choice, not because I am not good at keeping the intrigue going, keeping you on your toes, or being a “man”, but because I choose communication over fighting down the road over notions of “who I am with you” and “who I am with myself”. I can dress nice, I can grow a beard, I can also shave and look like a total bum, and wear plaid. I am great with my hands, but also text faster than a jack rabbit, doing what jack rabbits do quickly. Perception really. Your wants at the time of reading this and my perception of what I want.

I feel as though to fit in sometimes you have to know the best restaurants in this city of culture and diversity. You have to be able to suggest the best wine, not to mention afford it. You have to write that you like sarcasm and travel in your dating profile, even if majority when really broken down in percentage of time their travel to staring down at the phone ratio would paint a different picture. I am extremely well traveled. I don't have a want to travel just to travel, I have a want to experience together. What I’m trying to make a point of is yes it’s those little simple everyday human things that I wish people valued more It’s the smallest things that create real intimacy and the smallest things that create and lead to big things

https://www.lostintxtlation.com/a-metro-lumberjack-with-wifi/