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Alyssa Boaldin
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After suddenly being diagnosed with a rare form of aggressive cancer, I immediately started spiraling downward. Denial, loneliness, fear, depression, anger, and self-destructive behaviors. My life was a disaster. I was a mess. I was doing just about everything I was instructed not to. All sense of responsibility flew out the window, right along with my sense of morals. Further and further I slid into the deepest, darkest part of my life. I had come to terms with the fact that my life was over. I was going to die. Until I was rescued from not only cancer - but from myself.
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- Eric And Lisa Bloore
- 01-17-23
Great read for a mom of a newly diagnosed cancer patient.
I really recommend this book! My adult daughter was just diagnosed with cancer ( not the same kind as the author ) but it helped me understand, and process how she might be feeling and how to better support her. Very good !
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