This week is the last episode of Season 1 of Body Trauma. And for this episode, it is a solo episode with just Nia speaking for the podcast. In this week's episode, I tell you the story of my own body's trauma throughout the years. I start from birth and move up to the present day. We get into a lot of raw feelings and places. Please listen along this week to my story and also please support the podcast and my work by joining my Patreon at patreon.com/thefriendineverwanted.

Nia is an eating disorder recovery and mental health advocate. She has spent much of the past 3 years documenting her recovery from Bulimia, OCD, PTSD, and Bipolar Disorder on Instagram and her blog. It is her personal goal to become a therapist and work with people with eating disorders and co-occurring disorders. She posts on Instagram @thefriendineverwanted and blogs at thefriendineverwanted.com She has also started a brand new podcast called Body Trauma which you can find online at bodytraumapod.com You can also find Nia’s body positive and self care artwork in her amazing indie shop, Self Love Tool Chest at www.selflovetoolchest.com

Check out Nia on Instagram over @thefriendineverwanted and @bodytraumapod You can also find her blogging at thefriendineverwanted.com and you can support the podcast on Patreon at patreon.com/thefriendineverwanted. Remember, if you have a question about this podcast or want to share your thoughts please email us at bodytraumapod@gmail.com

Caleb Luna (@chairbreaker), a fat queer (of color) critical theorist, artist, and performance scholar joins Nia Patterson for the fifteenth episode of the podcast. In this week's episode the two of us talk about Caleb's upbringing living with various forms of abuse and trauma. From familial trauma to bullying and more. Caleb also tells us about what it has been like to live in a disabled body. We discuss queerness as a concept and its political roots. We also discuss fatness as an aspect of white supremacy and we talk about Fearing the Black Body by Sabrina Strings. We discuss what the definition of "nonbinary" means to Caleb now and also what it meant to them in the past. We cover the history of weight loss in his family and how it affected him and his siblings. experiences growing up in a biracial body and also a "chunky" body as she puts it. We cover much more and we delve into very difficult and avoided topics. Please listen along this week to Caleb's story and also please support their work.

Caleb Luna is a fat queer (of color) critical theorist, artist, and performance scholar. As a Ph.D. candidate in Performance Studies at UC Berkeley, their research focuses on performances of eating, and historicizing cultural representations of fat embodiment within the ongoing settler colonization of North America. As an activist political thinker, they are interested in engaging embodied difference as a generative resource toward fatter understandings of collective freedom.

You can of find Caleb Luna at @chairbreaker on Instagram and @chairbreaker_ on Twitter. You can also support them through their Patreon at Patreon.com/CalebLuna.

Check out Nia on Instagram over @thefriendineverwanted and @bodytraumapod You can also find her blogging at thefriendineverwanted.com and you can support the podcast on Patreon at patreon.com/thefriendineverwanted. Remember, if you have a question about this podcast or want to share your thoughts please email us at bodytraumapod@gmail.com

Megan Crabbe (@bodyposipanda), an author, influencer, performer and so much more joins Nia Patterson for the fourteenth episode of the podcast. This week the two of us talk about everything Megan and we cover a lot of topics! We talk about Megan's experiences growing up in a biracial body and also a "chunky" body as she puts it. We talk about her experiences with her body from a young age, through puberty, and into adulthood. We cover how her eating disorder started and how she managed to pull herself out of it and fight for her life literally.

We also talk about how she came to the body positivity movement. And what it means to be an Instagram name. What it means to be "bodyposipanda," sometimes at the risk of not being Megan to so many people. We also talk about what her journey has been coming out as queer. And what her current relationship means to her and what it's like being in a queer relationship.

We also go on many a side tangent including the Jonas Brothers, Taylor Swift, and so much more.

Megan Jayne Crabbe is an author, influencer, performer and loudly opinionated woman from Essex, UK. She's known online as Bodyposipanda, and has been creating content for the last 5 years around the topics of body positivity, mental health, feminism and beyond. Her bestselling book Body Positive Power is a manifesto of why we've been taught to hate our bodies, and the ways we can learn to accept them instead. When she isn't writing you might find her covered in pink glitter and destroying the diet industry on stages across the UK with her best friend @thevagaggle and their live show: the Never Say Diet Club, which is part Ted Talk, part comedy show, and a whole lot of outfit changes. On days that she's pretending the internet doesn't exist, Megan is most likely reading, playing The Sims, walking her dogs or hanging out with her sister Gemma, who is much cooler than she is.

Some resources mentioned in this episode:

Jes Baker - @themilitantbaker

The book Elena Vanishing by Elena Dunkle

Jen Bretty's Youtube Channel

Dani Adriana's IG Account

The book The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolf

You can of course find Megan at @bodyposipanda on Instagram and pretty much all over the internet.

Check out Nia on Instagram over @thefriendineverwanted and @bodytraumapod You can also find her blogging at thefriendineverwanted.com and you can support the podcast on Patreon at patreon.com/thefriendineverwanted. Remember, if you have a question about this podcast or want to share your thoughts please email us at bodytraumapod@gmail.com