Can't You Smell the Smoke?

A Christian Woman's Journey Dealing With a Narcissist Husband

By: Sydney Koh

Narrated by: Virtual Voice

***Winner of the 2025 International Impact Award in Christian Memoirs & Testimonies***

He was supposed to love you. Instead, you walk on eggshells, fearing his next outburst.

For many Christian women, the private agony of emotional and verbal abuse is buried under guilt, shame, and fear. Divorce feels wrong. Speaking out feels selfish. And yet—deep down—you wonder: Is this really God's design for marriage?

In Can’t You Smell the Smoke?, Sydney Koh vulnerably shares her personal story of surviving a narcissistic, emotionally abusive marriage while raising three young sons. Through mental illness, gaslighting, control, and spiritual manipulation, God’s faithfulness never wavered. Her story offers hope for women desperate for clarity, courage, and healing.

What you’ll gain from reading this powerful Christian memoir:

• How to recognize narcissistic abuse in Christian marriages—even when it’s hidden under religious guilt
• Biblical hope for women torn between their faith and the fear of leaving an abusive marriage
• Encouragement to trust God’s provision through emotional trauma and bipolar depression
• Practical wisdom for breaking free from manipulation, gaslighting, and control
• God Sightings: real-life moments where God’s hand was present in the midst of chaos
• Tools for healing, restoration, and thriving after escaping a toxic marriage

You are not alone. God sees your suffering. Freedom is possible.

If you or someone you love is trapped in an emotionally destructive Christian marriage, this book provides both spiritual comfort and practical clarity. God has a better plan for you.

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This is a must read for anyone in a marriage with a narcissist

Loved the book it spoke to my situation like no other book has before !!!! I couldn’t wait to continue the book each and every day

Different approach

Her story really convicted me, just how she humbly and tenderly approached the challenges in her marriage, which are similar to mine, but my attitude has been far from hers, making things even harder, so it was just a blessing to read and see the results of the opposite approach