CLEAR SEEING IS BEING

From Bullshit Valley To Reality

By: Michael Harris

Narrated by: Virtual Voice

The alarm is ringing right now. In your chest. Your gut. Your throat.
You've tried meditation, therapy, mindfulness, plant medicine. Each worked for a while. Then the alarm came back, sometimes louder than before.
This book isn't another technique to quiet it.
It's forensic documentation of that alarm going off fifty times in one person's nervous system—and what happened when the pattern finally broke.
What if awakening isn't what you think it is?
Not cosmic consciousness. Not transcendence. Not enlightenment.
But something simpler: the unwinding of a somatic bind your mind can't solve.
For three years, the author documented his compulsive seeking. Two opposing forces—Understanding (the drive to see clearly) and Belonging (the longing to merge)—at war, both survival strategies trying to escape an early contradiction.
A young nervous system firing two signals simultaneously: "I need someone" and "There's no one here."
Reach out for connection. Recoil because nothing responds and the world feels too big.
That's the bind. And neither understanding nor belonging could cure it.
Until one November bath when everything became clear.
This book shows you:

• Why "staying with sensation" doesn't work (you're only feeling one force at a time)
• The alarm mechanism that creates Bullshit Valley between HERE and THERE
• How two opposing charges neutralize when both are held simultaneously
• Why the treasure isn't beyond the wound—it's buried underneath it
• What the battlefield and cave actually were (annihilation vs. decay—both felt like death)
• What remains when the war ends (not fireworks—just ordinary wholeness)

No spiritual performance. No mystical gloss. Just honest documentation:

• 50 alarm cycles the nervous system survived
• The bath scene where two forces revealed themselves
• Somatic work that cleared the channel between gut and head
• Identity tracking where the second balloon finally deflated
• The morning after: finding Being buried under the bind itself

"After everything, nothing dramatic happened. I'm still here. Same desk. Same body. Same life. Except there's no 'me' inside it anymore."
This isn't a how-to guide. It's what happened when someone stopped trying to escape a bind and learned to feel both charges at once.
By the time you finish, your nervous system will recognize the trick. Not as understanding. As somatic recognition—like knowing you're about to sneeze.
That's all awakening ever was: your body recognizing the alarm before your mind takes the bait.
For exhausted spiritual seekers who know what they're supposed to do but can't do it when the alarm is screaming.
For anyone tired of techniques that treat symptoms while the root remains.
For those who suspect that awakening isn't about becoming divine—it's about becoming un-trapped.
The path wasn't a bridge across Bullshit Valley.
It was recognizing the valley was never real, the treasure was always here, and the alarm was the only thing keeping you from digging.
Scroll up. Start reading. Let your nervous system learn what words can't teach.