Dark Blue
The Despair Behind the Glory – My Journey Back from the Edge
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Narrated by:
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Lloyd Cooney
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By:
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Shane Carthy
About this listen
I wasn't living anymore, I was just surviving
From a young age, Shane Carthy had an amazing talent for sport. He quickly rose up through the ranks of Dublin football, playing on an All Ireland-winning team at the age of 18. In the midst of all of this success, he increasingly suffered from severe bouts of depression, hiding this from his family and all around him. For two long years as he triumphed on the football field, he suffered through constant mental turmoil. With searing honesty, he tells of his journey through deepest depression, leading him to become hospitalised at 19 years old and how he learned to overcome his troubles and to love life again.
With searing honesty, he tells of his journey through deepest depression, leading him to become hospitalised at nineteen years old, and how he learned to overcome his troubles and to love life again.
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