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  • God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

  • Tales of Stand-up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem
  • By: Darrell Hammond
  • Narrated by: Darrell Hammond
  • Length: 8 hrs and 45 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (1,063 ratings)

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God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

By: Darrell Hammond
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Publisher's summary

Tina Fey’s Bossypants meets David Carr’s The Night of the Gun in Darrell Hammond's groundbreaking memoir, God, If You’re Not up There, I’m F*cked - a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of an American comic genius.

By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes listeners from the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the show’s longest tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into the twisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Mingling behind-the-scenes stories from television’s best loved comedy series with a dark look inside a world-class funnyman, God, If You’re Not up There, I’m F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyone who shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know how an artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.

To hear Hammond tell stories from the book, live from New York’s Comedy Cellar, check out That’s Clinton!, also available on Audible.

©2011 Darrell Hammond (P)2018 Audible, Inc.
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Editorial Review

Spoken like a true comedian

I braced myself for the pain this memoir promised (or threatened), but getting to know one of my favorite SNL cast members of all time seemed worth the risk. In the SNL seasons I’ve watched, Darrell Hammond takes the cake for versatility, becoming virtually unrecognizable as himself in almost every disguise he's worn over the years. My favorite, of course, is his Sean Connery in Celebrity Jeopardy (sorry, Bill Clinton). And while I was tangentially aware of the fact that beneath those disguises was a survivor of abuse who struggled with addiction, to hear him open up about the lows he overcame on his road to recovery has been a rewarding and as you'd expect from Hammond, entertaining emotional journey. —Lavina K., Audible Editor

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Heartache and Hilarity with an SNL Legend
"In the SNL seasons I’ve watched, Darrell Hammond takes the cake for versatility, becoming virtually unrecognizable as himself in almost every disguise he's worn over the years. My favorite, of course, is his Sean Connery in Celebrity Jeopardy. While I was tangentially aware of the fact that beneath them was a survivor of abuse and addiction, to hear him open up about the lows he overcame on his road to recovery has been a rewarding and—as you'd expect from Hammond—entertaining emotional journey."
Lavina K., Audible Editor

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Listen to this book! You’ll have a lotta laughs, a lotta heartbreak, n learn something very important no matter who you are.

Engagingly entertaining as you’d expect from the hilarious n talented Darrell Hammond. More importantly, a heart-wrenching support for those w mental injury n an education for the rest. Thanks Darrell. Great job on the book n all the work you face everyday.

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Excellent Book!!!

Very funny, along with giving hope to those with addiction and/or mental health issues. Darrell Hammond is truly a gifted and unique human being.

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Incredible story masterfully performed.

What a journey this man has been through. Not having any of these struggles in my life, it was an excellent reminder to me that we usually don't know what makes people behave the way they do. His story reminded me to show kindness to those who probably need it most, avoid knee-jerk judgement and remember that all of our experiences are different. Thank you for that, Mr. Hammond!
It was also fun to hear some behind-the-scenes SNL stuff. I promise, should I ever get the chance to meet him, I will not ask him to do the Clinton voice.
The only bad thing about it was the sound editing. I admit I don't know how to do sound editing, but I could hear just about every pick-up. In the interview at the end, he mentioned how many there were and I thought, "Yep. That's about how many I heard." Don't let that discourage you from the book, though. The story and performance make up for it.

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Fantastic

Absolutely loved this book
What an incredible story and told in such an honest and funny way. One of a kind ❤️

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Excellent!!

This book was so moving. It will break your heart, make you laugh and admire Darrell for making it through such a challenging life. I am so glad Darrell narrated this book himself. It was fabulous!

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Inside the mind of a great talents journey

Always enjoyed his impressions. As a 12 stepper I appreciate Darrell sharing his story. Thank you Mr. Hammond. Continued peace

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I wish everyone with a mental injury (and that is most of us!) would be able to listen or read this amazing book !!

Also watch his amazingly brave documentary on Netflix, Cracked Up! Darrell Hammond is a very courageous human being!! We can learn a lot from him and his life and how he managed to survive !! I think he was supposed to survive to give us his messages of how to find help and peace!!!

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And your life sucks

Honest and heart opening. Plus a shit ton of laughs. It was this book that brought me to love audio books.

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Fabulous

Darrell Hammond epitomizes what can be great about recovery. This book is interesting, funny, honest and encouraging. Highly recommend ‼️

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what an amazing experience!

I could listen to Darrell for hours. His voice,his humor, all he has learned, experiences that are heartbreaking amd others that inspire. He put into words what I am just now understand at a happy, almost well adjusted 65. Thank you. I so enjoyed the extra bits at the end of the book. So glad I 'read' the book on Audible.

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