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I Should Be F'n Dead!
- Staying Positive Through a Sh1t Load of Health Challenges
- Narrated by: Emmilia O'Sullivan
- Length: 3 hrs and 13 mins
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Publisher's summary
Have you ever received a medical diagnosis that shocked you to the core?
After receiving the diagnosis did you wonder how on earth you were going to survive?
Receiving news like this can turn your world upside down–in a split second it feels like your life has changed and there is no way of things ever returning to how they were before. The reality is, that many people receive devastating news like this, and it happens every single day. For most, it is a lonely and terrifying place, and it can be difficult to know how to manage it or understand what to do next.
For Emmilia O’Sullivan, dealing with medical diagnosis and health challenges has always been a part of her life. She has visited hospitals and the emergency ward too many times to count, ever since she first entered the world. Over three decades some of the long list of health challenges she has faced and overcome include a kidney transplant, nephrectomy, osteoporosis, spinal fusion, cardiac arrest, pulmonary embolism, kidney failure, sepsis, non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma, pneumonia, and even a craniotomy!
Yet, despite Emmilia having endured more medical complaints in her short life than most people will encounter in their entire lifetime, she has still managed to live a full, happy and meaningful life of thirty years. And she looks forward with anticipation to many, many more to come.
In her inspirational memoir, I Should be F’N Dead! Staying Positive Through a Sh1t Load of Health Challenges, Emmillia shares her unique personal story of strength and survival in the face of a multitude of serious medical diagnosis. Powerful, honest and unflinchingly raw, this must-listen book has been written for those who have had their world turned on its head by a health concern and need a dose of inspiration from someone who has lived through a range of life-threatening health challenges and has come out stronger on the other side.
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