INTRODUCTION, CHAPTER 1: Our Joy Comes Tumbling Down. "With tears of anguished longing, I remember the early years of my marriage, when life was sweet..."

CHAPTER 2: Plunging Even Deeper. "By late October and early November of 1995, Stephen's depression was completely overtaking him..." CHAPTER 3: The Realm of Professional Help. "Stephen arrived home euphoric. With wild energy, he bustled around trying to 'get things in order'..."

CHAPTER 3 (continued): The Realm of Professional Help. "That week we had our first appointment with Stephen's new therapist. I had already met his psychiatrist and was not impressed..."

CHAPTER 3 (continued): The Realm of Professional Help. "Most of all, I wanted to prove to Stephen that I loved him in the way God intended us to love our spouses, unconditionally..." CHAPTER 4: Pressing into the Almighty. "By May, I could see this separation would be more long-term than I dreamed..."

CHAPTER 4 (continued): Pressing into the Almighty. "The Jensons were wonderfully gracious about sharing their home, but as a mother and an adult woman, I was longing for a home of my own so Daniel and I could have some semblance of a family unit again..."

CHAPTER 5: Taking Authority. "The next day, as reports poured in that Stephen was freaking out, ranting at different people and becoming nuttier than ever, something snapped in me..."

CHAPTER 6: Gathering the Pieces. "On Christmas eve, I called Stephen to tell him my mother said they still loved him and that he was welcome to join us at her house on Christmas Day..." CHAPTER 7: Aggression, Injustice, and Terror. "We prayed that the four-wheeling gang on their ATV's, had gotten tired of the path that encircled us..."

CHAPTER 7 (continued): Aggression, Injustice and Terror. "Another time, Stephen and I had gone to bed late, on a Sunday night. It was 1:30 AM and I had to get up for work at 6:00. Suddenly our rest was disrupted..."