Hey Rooters !! Thank you for your patience. Episode 10 !! Can you believe it ??! THANK YOU to all that listened & held space for me. I hope I could help encourage you to take up space in this big ol world. In today's episode I really hone in on one of my mental diagnoses CPTSD & how it sometimes just feels like the theft of my joy. Mother's day is usually very difficult for me because of my struggles with my own mother. For the most part I think I do a great job at masking & making others feel comfortable to celebrate around me. As someone healing from needing to mask & instead regulating to feel safe ,the weekend was tough. Being surrounded by outside family & everyone being in such great spirits just made me feel unable to express my discomfort. I then fell into the trap of a toxic narrative of shame & guilt for not being grateful enough. Not honoring the things I did well as a mother but instead hyper-focusing on my shortcomings as a mom. By the end of the night I just felt terrible & the next day my husband had thought he had done something wrong. (guess I'm not a phenomenal masker) I assured him it had nothing to do with him & everything to do with me. I took that day to regulate. & I know you must hear that a lot these days . Honestly as an an Aquarius I love learning new terminology but regulating means to control the rate or speed or supervise to ensure things run smoothly. So regulating for me is giving myself the power & control for my emotional well being. It's letting my body know it's ok to feel this way & we are safe. It brings mindfulness to my day & day that brings forth gratitude for all the beautiful magic in my life. Thanks to my practices I get to manage my CPTSD symptoms as well as other diagnoses in a way that offers me control & compassion.

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Love you all!