When all your life you were independent and fought all the battles on your own without help. There were dark moments where you thought you would never make it out. Many wondered why you never asked for help. It was the way you were brought up. If you showed your emotions or asked for help. Then you were considered weak. Your younger self being on your own with no one, it wasn’t terrifying because you have been doing this all your life. Your adult life feeling alone and still not asking for help. These days you would rather be quiet and figure your situation on your own without anyone knowing you are in pain and need help. Too many take for granted that the strong ones still need to be checked on. We are strong, but sometimes being strong all your life gets tiring. You know you have been through this storm before and you know you will have to go through it again, but this time around you know it’s something you can handle. It made you stronger and it made you realize a small break was all that you needed. The great escape wasn’t an escape at all. It was finding yourself again through all the chaos and pain.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

When you are tired of fighting. When you don’t trust no one anymore because your trust gets broken. The darker the storm the more the enemy will attack. He is attacking you because you are a threat. You keep walking with God, even when you get lost. You still run back to God. You don’t tell no one you are a Christian, You show it through your actions. You will make mistakes and have to forgive the ones you hurt as well. I’m ready for combat and am ready for each battle God has us walk through. You will have your moments in private but in public no one will know the battle you are going through. You chose to remain strong and firm because you know God has all of this under control. We just have to learn how to put all of our worries in his hands and to trust him.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Having two people in your life sick with no cure. It could be your brother or father. The news gets even harder to bear or accept. I see right through me because at every angle I feel like I’m being attacked in my life. I can’t catch a break or be able to catch my breath. Even through my own health battles I can’t understand why I have to go through all of this? When people around me seem calm, even though it may seem calm on the outside it usually means there is a war going on inside. I will get through this because I have God. I see right through me knowing that this season I am in, my old self is fading away. This year I realized all the situations I went through, I learned my lessons, but I also realized that God was removing my old self and transitioning me to my new self. A stronger and wise self who will still hurt and have pain, but will be wiser.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I don’t know what it is, but after I go through a dark moment. I feel alive. I feel so alive. The energy it took to get through this moment. My ray of sunshine is coming. Working hard and accomplishing my dreams I am still breaking free of the ashes, but once I break free I feel brand new. I feel a new sense and a new understanding of what God has in store for me. I’m thankful for the past, making amends and no regretting what was done. I have come a long way. I wouldn’t be where I am today, if it wasn’t for the ones who stood by my side and helped me throughout all these years. I feel so alive because my smile is coming. I have a different perspective on positivity and on life. The experience you get after your storm has passed. You made it out, but with a bolder and brighter energy than before. Keep being positive and showing that smile. Never let this type of feeling fade away.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Have certain individuals not being in your life like your mother and sister. It can be hard at times. You miss the memories, who they used to be and what life was like before everything turned dark. You forgive each individual but pain still lingers. There are times where you blame yourself, and wish things could have been different, but this was God's plan all along. Most people are in your life for a season. How our smiles have changed was even through the tears and the days where it was hard to even move. You still had a smile. The smile changed through the pain and heartache. You wish them the best, but you also know that the decision you made was the best decision. Never leave no stone unturned, but sometimes you have to leave some individuals in the past. It will hurt, but it’s the only way you can heal.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This is a different type of grief when you lose a friend. Many friends you lost, once a friend was someone who turned on you. They only used you, took advantage of you and discarded you like a piece of trash. It’s one of the most painful moments to go through. You didn’t deserve it or chose it. It’s a choice that they made, that they will have to live with it forever. They can’t take it back, You will eventually heal, while their guilt will start to show. They were never your friends, they just wanted to destroy you. When you even up and had the courage to walk away, it didn’t destroy you. It might have destroyed you in the moment, but eventually it destroyed them. All my friends in the corner of the ones who lost a real and good individual. They will have to live with that loss.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Being cheated on, then six years later this person decides to show back up. You blocked me, then six months later told my friend you were engaged. You were too scared to speak to me. I moved on with my life, I am happy and married. When things got real you couldn’t handle it. A boy who will always be a boy to only jump from person to person because your needs aren't met. I will never forget the last week in June leading up to July 13th, to the week leading up to Christmas. I forgive you, but I will never forget what you did. You act like nothing happened, but we all know the reason why you showed back up six years later was because you felt guilty. Keep that guilt to yourself, you will have to live with it for the rest of your life. You created your bed and you will have to sleep in it. It’s too late now, you waited too late. The wound is healed but I won’t let you pour salt in it. I don’t care for lame excuses or an apology. You can keep all of that to yourself and stay away from me. It’s time for you to stop living in the past and move on with your life.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Being judged for my own health problems, people thinking I am making it up for attention or it’s not real. Listen to yourself, you are talking about things that you don’t even understand or know about. If you put yourself in other people's shoes maybe you will understand, but you are too arrogant to care. Wait until you have health problems and others treat you the way you treated me, then give you a view from my perspective. Being in pain, sick and dizzy all the time wasn’t what I chose. This was a battle given to me, I have no cure but at least I still show up to help others. I always put others before me, and I always go out of my way to help others and make sure their day is better. I don’t have to do that, but I love helping other people and just doing God’s work. I am not about the popularity or what comes back to me, I could care less. Every good deed that is done is out of helping others, you never know you have made their day. Nowaday everyone is about themselves or trying to tear everyone else down. It's a sad world we live in and we need to do better. Long story short, I could have given the ones who hurt me the same treatment, but I walked away. I gave them the cold shoulder as well. Two classy ways to be, without falling to the same level as them. This is why many people don’t like me or always have a problem with me, when they have a problem with themselves. I will never change or think I am better because I am not. I am thankful to be who I am and be where I am today. I am thankful for the support and that I get to do what I love. Long story short it was a tough fight, but it’s a fight I am glad I kept fighting.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.