jD is back and he's in a funk...again.Tramscript:Track 2:[0:21] Hey, it's JD here, back for another week of introspection and reflection on grief, depression, and the pathway to mental wellness, all the while nourishing my soul with the music andpoetry of the late indie rock singer-songwriter, David Berman.How you doing, motherfuckers?I am sitting here at my desk looking out the window right now, and it is gray and somewhat miserable out.[0:53] We are in the full effects of winter. There was a winter storm yesterday, which has put some snow on the ground finally.We had a green Christmas, and now there is snow, and this is what I have to look forward to for the next couple of months.Uh it's not something i relish i assure you of that uh i pretty much am not an outdoor person in the winter uh which is troubling because i need to be outdoors i need to get fresh air and ineed walks in and it's tough it's extra tough when fuckers don't shovel their walkways so that you can traverse the sidewalks you know in an orderly manner without walking aroundlooking as though you're having some sort of spastic uh reaction you know uh, it's it's a strange thing when you're about to fall the weird movements your body will make to maintainbalance it looks comical but uh oftentimes it's very frightening and uh.[2:03] I don't know, I'm getting to the point age-wise where falling is not something I long for.I've never broken a bone in my body.And I don't know, I'm feeling pretty tough, but I think that if I were to break a bone these days, I would be an absolute wimp about it because I've never experienced that pain.And I've went off on a rant, haven't I? I've went off on a tangent, all because people don't shovel their sidewalks.Just fucking get a shovel and shovel it, man.And if you've got a little salt, put some salt down. But I'll tell you what, my dogs, they don't like the salt.It irritates the pads of their feet. So there's that.[2:51] Listen, I am in a bit of a funk. drunk, the new meds that I'm on were enough to get me noticed by my wife and several of my friends.They noted, you seem different. You seem better than you have over the last little while.And I agree. I went to a party on Saturday night. I didn't get laid. I got in a fight.Uh-huh. It ain't no big thing. No, I'm just joking. That's a little lead-up forward for you.But I did go to to a party on saturday night and it was a friend's party from high school days and call you know university days as well like we we maintained and we've maintained afriendship despite my, efforts to fuck things up i didn't go to his wedding for example and that was a bit of a a bit of a.[3:49] Dent in in our friendship i'll be frank um but i sent him a long letter one day uh inviting him to my wedding when i got married and you know sort of explained my position at thetime which was that i was extremely poor uh there was a year there was a year that the government when i filed my income taxes the government followed up and they said you need toprovide a letter uh.[4:18] A written signed letter to confirm your earnings because your earnings are so low it was like $7,800 and that's when I was 29 I took the year I quit my job and went to performanceschool comedy school and then I spent the summer in LA cashed out all my life savings and spent that on summer in hollywood and um it all worked out rather well until i got home anddidn't have a job so you know it was it was my letter basically said that it was the goodwill of my friends that got me through you know and that's really truly the case i was very fortunatebut um Um, I digress as I always do on this podcast.I guess I should just call this podcast the digression project because that's essentially what it is.But anyway, the party was full of people that I didn't know.And I feel like I went in, even my wife made the comment the next day.She said, I, you know, I'm shocked that you went because you typically bail on things things like that at the last minute.[5:34] Being social with people that I don't know very well, I'm extremely in my head. And I wasn't.I was gregarious. I was joking.We had a good time. We watched some sports, drank some beers, and it was a lot...
