Episodes

  • The Kitchen Table From FLETC to the FDNY

    The Kitchen Table From FLETC to the FDNY
    Feb 8 2024
    Introduction to my story, of a life serving as a 30 year first responder and my struggles with Mental Health. From the Military to Law Enforcement and finally as a Firefighter with then FDNY. Ill share triumphs, tragedies and everything in between as honest and transparent as only I know how. come sit with me at The Kitchen Table. Ill see you at the big one!
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    31 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 2 Proby School Doubts

    The Kitchen Table Episode 2 Proby School Doubts
    Feb 8 2024
    Now i'm getting into FDNY Proby School. Learning how to become a New York City Firefighter. But a few Doubts creep into my head. How i dealt with it and overcame the feelings of insecurity and failure.
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    32 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 3 My First Firehouse

    The Kitchen Table Episode 3 My First Firehouse
    Feb 8 2024
    Graduation from FDNY Proby School and get assigned to my first firehouse in Brooklyn NY. Filled with Fear and Anxiety i meet the brothers and become part of the job.
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    17 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 4. My Transfer and My Huge Mistake Part 1

    The Kitchen Table Episode 4. My Transfer and My Huge Mistake Part 1
    Feb 10 2024
    In this episode I continue my timeline from FLETC onto the FDNY and my transfer from my first firehouse E220 to E59 in Harlem. And the Huge mistake I made that almost made me regret it.
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    26 mins
  • The Kitchen Table. Episode 5 My Transfer and Huge Mistake Part 2

    The Kitchen Table. Episode 5 My Transfer and Huge Mistake Part 2
    Feb 10 2024
    I continue with the battle of stress, anxiety and depression, after my transfer to my new firehouse E59. After not initially being accepted by the brothers in the firehouse, i set out to prove I belonged.
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    29 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 6. My Daily Habits to deal with Stress

    The Kitchen Table Episode 6. My Daily Habits to deal with Stress
    Feb 10 2024
    I have completed my basic timeline of my career and some experiences of trauma, stress and depression. Today i get into my daily habits of how i manage these mental health issue. I have a solid routine and disciplines that must be performed everyday to keep the dark thoughts at bay. Soon we'll get into stories about incidents as a career first responder.
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    31 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 7 A swift kick in the Ass!

    The Kitchen Table Episode 7 A swift kick in the Ass!
    Feb 10 2024
    Here I describe how sometimes my depression or anxiety is totally unwarranted and all i need is a swift kick in the ass to leave my pity party and get back into an positive mindset. Sometimes that is all you need to break you out of the poor me attitude. A person who will step up and tell it to you straight. No one wants to be around a debbie downer.
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    27 mins
  • The Kitchen Table Episode 8 Pranks and Shenanigans

    The Kitchen Table Episode 8 Pranks and Shenanigans
    Feb 10 2024
    Today is an episode of laughter and fun in the firehouse. How laughter is one of the best medicines for mental health. We build bonds, have fun, relieve stress and train each other through pranks and jokes. A few quick stories of pranks played on me and pranks i played on others.
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    25 mins