Here we visit The List - topics that have come up for us in our grief journeys that we feel would be worth discussion. What's on the list? What are the things we have faced or continue to face in the process of coming to terms with a death by overdose? We take a look.

In this conversation, we start out discussing the rituals and habits we form to get us through the day. and what happens when these get disrupted. It's interesting to think about how we rebuild ourselves and our days after the deaths of our children.

One of those rituals for us has been walking dogs, which segues into a conversation about having pets, especially the pets our children loved.

In this episode, we start out by talking about triggers - the things that bring up old feelings of helplessness and anxiety.

Neither of us ever really felt that our children would die. But they did. And that brings up the old saying - Why Not You? Why shouldn't it have happened to us? It can happen to anyone, so why not us?

We then segue into an acknowledgement of relief about some aspects of death. There is some stigma in acknowledging relief, but it is real and it is okay.

How many of us have wished for a sign from our loved one? Did you get one? A lot? None?

In this episode we discuss some of our experiences with signs.

In today's episode, we welcome our friend Beth, who also lost a child to a drug overdose. We talk about coming out of the shock of experiencing the death of a child, into the realization that they are not coming back.

We can be so hard on ourselves. Can we practice self-compassion and self-love?

When your child dies from an overdose, many of us harden to life. We become frozen, paralyzed, and turn to stone. In this episode, we discuss practicing going from hard to soft. Frozen to unfrozen. We also talk about where we find support in this journey and what that support might look like.

In this episode, we discuss how the ways in which we care for ourselves have changed. This discussion leads into a conversation about finding meaning. Is it out there to find?

In this episode we discuss what it means to heal. Is there a definition for it? Is it possible to heal from grief? Or is grief a chronic condition - something to be endured but never truly healed? Interwoven into the conversation is the question of how to hold love and loss at the same time.