Imagine feeling like an outsider in your own social circles due to the strict values instilled by your upbringing. That was my reality, and in this episode, I share how my cautious approach to drinking and drug use led to a sense of disconnection from typical high school and college activities. This reflection on fear and experience is deeply tied to the cultural impact of Charli XCX's album, Brat. I explore the anxiety of feeling uncool and the fear of my true self being exposed, connecting these emotions to the aloof nature of brat culture and how it has shaped my identity.

We dive into the concept of being a "brat" and how it triggered an internal split in my persona, influencing my engagement with mainstream content. I'll take you through a personal anecdote involving a Spotify playlist and the song "10:35" by Tate McRae, revealing how subconscious associations impact my reactions. This chapter also unravels my complicated relationship with alcohol, its allure, and the destructive cycle it creates. Through this introspection, I discuss the pursuit of genuine enjoyment and the significance of confronting suppressed emotions for self-acceptance.

Visual art can profoundly impact our subconscious, and in this episode, I compare album covers to barcodes, examining how different stimuli evoke unique emotional responses. We touch on the historical evolution of typography and how it subtly influences us. There's also a heartfelt reflection on longing for unity in sober spaces and how choir and military activities might offer a blueprint for collective effervescence. Inspired by Charli XCX's brat culture and art, I confront societal norms and internal conflicts.

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Ever wondered how embracing your hidden self could transform your life? This episode is a deep dive into self-awareness and personal growth, where I share personal anecdotes and insights about connecting deeply with others, eliminating the need for guesswork in understanding their thoughts. We discuss the profound impact negative thinking patterns can have on our energy fields and provide practical strategies to find purpose in pain, allowing us to overcome life's challenges. Reflecting on my own journey, I highlight the importance of recognizing and nurturing our unique passions, or "red threads," and encourage listeners to bring their suppressed selves into the spotlight. Plus, learn about the conqueror and conquered mindset, all while I humorously share my evolving understanding of podcast hosting.

Taking a fresh look at self-expression and connection, we explore what it truly means to create a podcast versus a traditional broadcast. I open up about my journey of not just identifying as a podcaster but as the creative director of my own life, giving voice to different inner parts and embracing nonlinear storytelling. Discover the significance of staying true to one's creative flow and the transformative power of radical honesty. Revisit childhood dreams of stardom and the innate desire to connect and inspire others through content that might not fit the conventional definition of a podcast. This episode is a heartfelt exploration of embracing all facets of ourselves and what it takes to genuinely express and connect in today's world.

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Have you ever wondered what it truly means to be honest, even when it's uncomfortable? In this episode, I share my journey in embracing radical honesty and the profound impact it has had on my relationships and personal growth. By leaning into my vulnerability, I learned to differentiate between hiding my truths and simply not being ready to share them. This distinction has been key in protecting myself while fostering authentic connections. Recounting heartfelt conversations and the invaluable lessons from my upbringing, I reveal how honesty can be both a shield and a bridge to deeper connections.

Join me as I delve into the wisdom imparted by my mother and therapist, and how those lessons have guided me. Uncover the power of getting out of someone else’s head and heart, and why allowing all parts of ourselves to be seen is crucial in building real, meaningful relationships. Whether you struggle with vulnerability or seek to strengthen your connections, this episode offers insights that can transform how you relate to others and yourself.

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Ever wondered how much deeper communication could be if we moved beyond settling for flat text messages? In this episode we explore the rich tapestry of human connection, diving into how images and handwritten notes can convey emotions and messages that words alone sometimes fail to capture. We again touch on the "text language" each person develops and how it shapes our understanding and potential for miscommunication. We also discuss the generational language gap, discussing how younger people are creatively transforming language in the digital age.

Our journey continues as we uncover the fascinating link between our body's cellular functions and our responsiveness to new information and breath. The episode emphasizes the importance of mindful breathing techniques in managing anxiety and the art of communication. We reflect on how each cell in our body "dances" to its unique rhythm, contributing to our overall well-being. Through personal stories, we highlight the vulnerability and courage required to express emotions, distinguishing between the feeling of being unsafe due to real danger and emotional exposure.

Finally, we explore the intricate balance of pleasure and pain in life, comparing it to the interplay of light and dark. The joy of creating art collaboratively is a testament to the value of authentic human connections and the richness of non-verbal communication. We discuss the importance of feeling like equals in relationships and appreciating the unique qualities each person brings. While some insights remain for future episodes, this chapter promises a continued exploration of language, connection, and self-reflection. Join us as we embark on this journey of discovering deeper meanings and stronger connections.

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What if the very thing that brings you joy and connection also becomes an addictive force in your life? This episode's journey begins with a deeply personal exploration of love and addiction, examining the profound impact of missing someone and how the thin line between love and dependency can shape our relationships. Through the lens of passionate lesbian relationships, we dissect the addictive nature of love, distinguishing between fleeting pleasures and lasting, meaningful connections. The key takeaway? Setting clear intentions and seeking long-term joy is crucial to avoid the pitfalls of temporary gratification.

Ever felt unseen or misunderstood despite being in a relationship? I open up about a past relationship where my ex-girlfriend loved an idealized version of me, which led to a significant disconnect because of my internal negative self-perception. We also discuss my unique communication style and the importance of grounding oneself when interacting with someone who is mentally scattered. We shed light on the subtleties of texting and the necessity for stability and connection in our interactions, emphasizing the need for genuine self-alignment and clear communication.

Finally, we dive into the themes of personal growth, inner desires, and the importance of valuing ourselves and others. The concept of the "terror barrier" is discussed as a metaphor for personal growth, emphasizing the balance of experiencing pain to appreciate pleasure. We highlight the joy of discovering each other's unique perspectives and the importance of meaningful, grounded communication. Wrapping up, I share my passion for creative expression, encouraging everyone to find a creative outlet that fuels their joy and aligns with their true selves. This episode is a heartfelt call to action: embrace your creativity, see the value in yourself and others, and pursue long-term joy and fulfillment.

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Hi! I'm so glad you are here. I hope you'll find something to take with you from this episode. Come with me as I move from healing into growth through storytelling and sharing.

My "reflections" series is more informal. These are not videos as I recorded them on my voice memo app before bed. These episodes will be shorter and more of a live reflection of how I'm feeling in the moment. I hope you find joy in listening :)

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Hi! I'm so glad you are here. I hope you'll find something to take with you from this episode. Come with me as I move from healing into growth through storytelling and sharing.

Check out the video on YouTube here.

Support the Show.

Hi! I'm so glad you are here. I hope you'll find something to take with you from this episode. Come with me as I move from healing into growth through storytelling and sharing.

My "reflections" series is more informal. These are not videos as I recorded them on my voice memo app before bed. These episodes will be shorter and more of a live reflection of how I'm feeling in the moment. I hope you find joy in listening :)

Support the Show.