My wife's dad passed away last week. It's an overwhelming experience — one filled with anger, grief, and lots of tears. But also, introspection. Today, I talk a bit about this experience, share a few of my own trials, and finally settle on that "one thing."

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 on the porch in a thunderstorm 0:00:57 podcast has been dark lately 0:00:70 yesterday's emotional release / sob fest 0:01:57 father-in-law's passing / loss 0:03:45 i'm getting by 0:04:34 the dying experience 0:07:57 want a good cry? watch "hachi" 0:13:22 murphy & the moths 0:14:05 strongest release in years 0:15:24 the rain arrives / coping 0:17:02 lessons from movies 0:17:49 finding comfort talking with a friend 0:18:34 the investigatory process 0:24:03 seeking patterns and solutions 0:26:39 this too shall pass 0:28:00 developing tools 0:28:44 fighting & acceptance 0:30:40 seeking the epiphany, again 0:31:28 we're better for going thorugh it 0:32:00 just keep moving forward 0:32:47 one day… 0:33:50 you gotta be strong some times 0:35:56 return of reading 0:38:03 "that one thing" (city slickers) 0:42:55 enjoying our small audience… for now 0:43:32 brain cramp intermission 0:44:42 enjoying our small audience (redux) 0:46:54 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Friday, June 21, 2024 — LOCATION: Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Lessons come from a variety of sources. Something as trivial as a favorite movie. Disabling as chronic pain. Or profound as waiting for a loved one to take their last breath. The most priceless lessons are often found in the darkest of times.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 podcast affected by my experiences 0:01:38 overall nerve pain 0:02:03 wife's dad brought home for hospice 0:03:38 coming to terms with death 0:05:19 much loss in past three years 0:06:12 blessings of family 0:07:00 lessons from the movie "yesterday" 0:08:19 lesson one: go get her 0:08:50 lesson two: be honest 0:09:35 richard curtis connection 0:11:04 chasing the dream 0:13:05 what is success? 0:14:05 call with my sister 0:15:02 john lennon was happy 0:15:47 when we stop chasing 0:17:00 value the people in your life

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Wednesday, June 12, 2024 — LOCATION: Longmont, CO

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

One of the key factors in chronic anxiety, is control. We are so afraid of what may, or may not happen that we try to control almost every aspect of our lives. Typically, with little success. Perhaps, learning to let go of the control is a better path.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 taking a walk in longmont, co 0:00:43 deciding what to talk about 0:01:25 lot of change in my life 0:02:03 when do you stand up for your beliefs? 0:03:01 balancing our demands 0:03:38 control, the most common factor 0:04:34 control and fear 0:05:34 managing the fear 0:06:08 control can be helpful at times 0:06:43 control is an illusion 0:07:25 brief train interruption 0:08:49 letting go of control 0:09:20 mantra: "let go, let god" 0:10:16 started to let go of control 0:11:11 knowing when to speak up 0:11:44 learning to let go 0:12:02 walking away from a film festival board 0:13:55 it all comes back to control 0:14:12 maybe, I'm not right 0:15:16 I've never really lived relaxed 0:15:54 let go of control for one day 0:17:09 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Sunday, June 16, 2024 — LOCATION: Longmont, Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).