My wife's dad passed away last week. It's an overwhelming experience — one filled with anger, grief, and lots of tears. But also, introspection. Today, I talk a bit about this experience, share a few of my own trials, and finally settle on that "one thing."

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 on the porch in a thunderstorm 0:00:57 podcast has been dark lately 0:00:70 yesterday's emotional release / sob fest 0:01:57 father-in-law's passing / loss 0:03:45 i'm getting by 0:04:34 the dying experience 0:07:57 want a good cry? watch "hachi" 0:13:22 murphy & the moths 0:14:05 strongest release in years 0:15:24 the rain arrives / coping 0:17:02 lessons from movies 0:17:49 finding comfort talking with a friend 0:18:34 the investigatory process 0:24:03 seeking patterns and solutions 0:26:39 this too shall pass 0:28:00 developing tools 0:28:44 fighting & acceptance 0:30:40 seeking the epiphany, again 0:31:28 we're better for going thorugh it 0:32:00 just keep moving forward 0:32:47 one day… 0:33:50 you gotta be strong some times 0:35:56 return of reading 0:38:03 "that one thing" (city slickers) 0:42:55 enjoying our small audience… for now 0:43:32 brain cramp intermission 0:44:42 enjoying our small audience (redux) 0:46:54 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Friday, June 21, 2024 — LOCATION: Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Lessons come from a variety of sources. Something as trivial as a favorite movie. Disabling as chronic pain. Or profound as waiting for a loved one to take their last breath. The most priceless lessons are often found in the darkest of times.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 podcast affected by my experiences 0:01:38 overall nerve pain 0:02:03 wife's dad brought home for hospice 0:03:38 coming to terms with death 0:05:19 much loss in past three years 0:06:12 blessings of family 0:07:00 lessons from the movie "yesterday" 0:08:19 lesson one: go get her 0:08:50 lesson two: be honest 0:09:35 richard curtis connection 0:11:04 chasing the dream 0:13:05 what is success? 0:14:05 call with my sister 0:15:02 john lennon was happy 0:15:47 when we stop chasing 0:17:00 value the people in your life

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Wednesday, June 12, 2024 — LOCATION: Longmont, CO

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

One of the key factors in chronic anxiety, is control. We are so afraid of what may, or may not happen that we try to control almost every aspect of our lives. Typically, with little success. Perhaps, learning to let go of the control is a better path.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 taking a walk in longmont, co 0:00:43 deciding what to talk about 0:01:25 lot of change in my life 0:02:03 when do you stand up for your beliefs? 0:03:01 balancing our demands 0:03:38 control, the most common factor 0:04:34 control and fear 0:05:34 managing the fear 0:06:08 control can be helpful at times 0:06:43 control is an illusion 0:07:25 brief train interruption 0:08:49 letting go of control 0:09:20 mantra: "let go, let god" 0:10:16 started to let go of control 0:11:11 knowing when to speak up 0:11:44 learning to let go 0:12:02 walking away from a film festival board 0:13:55 it all comes back to control 0:14:12 maybe, I'm not right 0:15:16 I've never really lived relaxed 0:15:54 let go of control for one day 0:17:09 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Sunday, June 16, 2024 — LOCATION: Longmont, Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Sitting on the back porch with Murphy as we contemplate the now and the not yet now. Mindfulness (focusing on the present) is a very useful tool for managing anxiety and depression. That being said, having something to look forward has its own rewards too.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 on the porch / summer is here 0:00:38 struggling lately 0:01:12 three eggs and a bran muffin 0:01:42 another emotional release 0:03:27 tomorrow, things will be better 0:03:47 intro 0:04:13 a bit about murphy 0:05:04 cleaning off the patio 0:05:34 sports car revving 0:06:18 balancing present and future 0:07:34 mindfulness and being in the now 0:08:22 the future / looking forward to things 0:10:01 powering through, beneficial life changes 0:11:14 tomorrow thinking has its benefits too 0:12:29 balancing now and future 0:13:01 not all my ideas are gems 0:13:31 we all need someone who cares 0:14:35 signing off

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Tuesday, June 4, 2024 — LOCATION: Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Every now and then we get overwhelmed with negative events. When that happens, when it seems as if the fates are against us, we need to find something hopeful to lift us up. Join me on my morning walk as we seek that light together.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 a morning walk with the birds 0:01:08 negativity overwhelm 0:03:02 finding a balance and connection 0:03:45 not everyone feels good most of the time 0:04:24 fear, anxiety, and new nerve pain 0:08:08 the anxiety of medical confusion 0:10:01 the blessing in caring for another 0:10:59 mindset matters 0:12:35 taking a walk in nature 0:13:19 life is good and bad, as intended 0:15:09 finding our own hope 0:18:09 my faith helps me at times 0:19:48 golf cart traffic jam 0:20:49 lost in a tangent 0:21:32 i don't have the answers 0:23:54 we have to believe in the long game 0:25:42 hope & mindfulness 0:27:17 my benzo experience is rare 0:28:04 a dose of resilience 0:29:38 time to head back to the family 0:30:23 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Tuesday, May 28, 2024 — LOCATION: Longmont, Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Relationships seem harder today than perhaps any other time in history. What does it take to find that special someone? And even more so, to keep that relationship going? I may not have the answers, but it should be a good discussion.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 intro 0:00:31 in the basement 0:01:10 health complications with father-in-law 0:01:59 what have i learned about marriage 0:03:13 we're designed to have a partner 0:04:01 picking the right partner 0:04:45 dating & getting married later 0:05:57 how I met my wife 0:10:18 how do you find that connection? 0:10:42 not having kids 0:11:49 what keeps a relationship going? 0:12:05 a witness to your life 0:13:38 trust & jealousy 0:15:43 what happened to "love"? 0:17:45 men vs. women 0:19:07 dating in the 80s vs. now 0:20:41 communication differences 0:24:18 3rd rail topics 0:25:06 we are different for a reason 0:28:18 complaining about your spouse 0:29:12 most of us want that someone 0:29:58 if it was easy, it wouldn't be meaningful 0:30:58 comfort and support during the dark times 0:35:29 episode 50 of uneven 0:37:01 the epidemic of lonliness 0:37:14 episode 50 of uneven 0:38:33 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Thursday, May 23, 2024 — LOCATION: Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

We are more informed today than ever in human history — and equally so, more terrified. We don't know who to trust, what to believe, or where to turn. This state of instability leaves us fearful and anxious, desperately seeking answers and calm.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 I've been lost lately 0:01:55 still about anxiety 0:02:22 anxiety and generations 0:04:13 this struggle is different 0:05:34 eroding freedoms 0:07:31 loss of trust 0:08:05 integrity in journalism 0:09:04 and then there's big pharma 0:11:13 no studies of long-term drug effects 0:13:41 money corrupts 0:14:11 back to our loss of trust 0:16:02 ai will throw fuel on the flame 0:17:05 world conflicts / climate change 0:18:53 internet vs. real life 0:21:07 human evolution vs. technological change 0:22:57 desperately seeking objective news 0:25:05 doomsday news 0:26:00 my middle core 0:27:04 life was better before? 0:27:53 my values were forged in the 80s 0:29:05 today vs. past, which is harder? 0:31:00 tune out for a bit 0:32:20 taking a break / simple pleasures 0:33:16 real world, nature, & gratitudes 0:36:20 i may have rambled a bit again 0:38:08 in closing

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Tuesday, May 14, 2024 — LOCATION: Colorado

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).

Enjoy this relaxing, guided meditation on the beach with ocean waves and the distant song of native birds. This is the first of our meditations on this channel, and I hope you like it.

CHAPTERS

0:00:00 meditation intro 0:00:57 3 deep breaths 0:02:08 picture a beach 0:02:39 no worries 0:03:25 releasing the stress 0:04:40 easing back into the world

RECODING INFO

— RECORDED: Tuesday, May 7, 2024

PODCAST SITELINKS

— PODCAST WEBSITE: https://www.unevenpodcast.com — EASING ANXIETY: https://www.easinganxiety.com — YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/@easinganx — X (TWITTER): https://twitter.com/@easinganx

PODCAST SUMMARY

Welcome to “uneven,” a podcast about life, anxiety, and being human. In such a chaotic world, how do we better our lives and the lives of those around us? Maybe, just maybe, we might find a few solutions together. Join veteran podcaster D E Foster as he explores the intimate struggles so many of us experience — often in silence. I hope you’ll join us.

PODCAST DISCLAIMER

The uneven podcast is for general information purposes only and should never be considered medical, psychological, or any other form of health advice. Health-related information provided is not a substitute for professional advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems or to prescribe any medical devices, psychological treatments, or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it.

Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://easinganxiety.com/disclaimer.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

If you, or anyone you know, is having suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. Resources can be found on our website at: https://www.easinganxiety.com/resources#suicide.

PODCAST MUSIC

All music provided / licensed through Storyblocks (https://www.storyblocks.com)

uneven theme music — TITLE: From the Earth — ARTIST: Humans Win — PUBLISHER: Lance Conrad (BMI)

PODCAST PRODUCTION

The Uneven Podcast is part of the Easing Anxiety network (https://easinganxiety.com) and is a production of Denim Mountain Press (https://denimmountainpress.com).