I See You, Survivor
Life Inside (and Outside) the Totally F*cked-Up Troubled Teen Industry
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Liz Ianelli
About this listen
A survivor of the Troubled Teen Industry exposes the truth about the dark side of a billion-dollar industry's institutionalized abuse—and shares the story of her own fight for justice.
Liz Ianelli, known around the world as Survivor993, spent years at the Family Foundation—labeled an “institution for troubled teens.” The children who went through The Family School like her were good people. They had potential and dreams, but they came out with lifelong trauma: anxious, angry, paranoid, self-hating and in pain. Most of them have suffered lives of hardship, unable to integrate back into society. Hundreds have died, mostly by overdose and suicide.
I See You, Survivor is about what really happened at The Family and what continues to happen at thousands of facilities like it. Beyond the trauma, this book is about triumph, resilience, and an effort to help others, and it conveys Liz’s critical message for every survivor she sees:
“You are not broken. You are not unlovable. And you are not alone. There are millions of us. And I come with a message, for you, for them, for everyone: They act strong, but we are stronger. We are worthy. We are not alone. Speak, and we will be there for you. Speak, because there is power in your testimony. Speak, and we will win.”
This is a book first and foremost for survivors who can find support and community in these stories. It is also for parents, counselors, law makers and others to expose this industry for what it is: child abuse. And how that abuse has consequences for all of us.
©2023 Liz Ianelli and Bret Witter (P)2023 Hachette BooksListeners also enjoyed...
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At Bristol High they were an elite clique known as the Five Firsts: Amanda, Bailey, Carmen, Delta and Zora...ABCD & Z. They could have accepted their classmate, Emmy, as "E", but with her bookish disposition and her embarrassing status of scholarship student to boot, they rejected her and chose wealthy Zora instead. At a pre-graduation party just before the end of senior year, Lance Ventura, the hottest guy in school, falls down an embankment toward the river and is barely rescued in time to save his life. One of the Five Firsts, Carman, rushes to save him, but isn't so lucky.
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Real life
- By lisa on 06-09-20
By: Lisa Jackson, and others
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Without a Prayer
- The Death of Lucas Leonard and How One Church Became a Cult
- By: Susan Ashline
- Narrated by: Hillary Huber
- Length: 13 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged
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Teenager Lucas Leonard made shocking admissions in front of the altar - he'd practiced witchcraft, conspired to murder his parents, and committed unspeakable crimes. The confessions earned him a brutal beating by a gang of angry church members, including his parents and sister. Lucas was brought to the hospital dead, awakening the sleepy community of Chadwicks, New York, to the horror that had been lurking next door. Nine members of Lucas' church would eventually find themselves facing murder-related charges. But how did they get to that point? And what made Lucas confess?
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The Depravity of the Human Soul
- By J. Miller on 01-31-20
By: Susan Ashline
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Love Me to Death
- The Chilling True Story of WIlliam “Wild Bill Cody” Neal—The Vicious Denver Lady-Killer
- By: Steve Jackson
- Narrated by: Kevin Pierce
- Length: 6 hrs and 42 mins
- Unabridged
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William Neal, who called himself "Wild Bill Cody," was seductive and skillful at separating love-struck women from their money, and ultimately, their lives. Apprehended by police, Neal, who proclaimed himself “better than Ted Bundy,” pleaded guilty to three murders then insisted on representing himself at his death penalty trial. But the psychopathic killer found himself up against the incredible courage of his one surviving victim.
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Disappointed
- By donald on 02-09-23
By: Steve Jackson
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Missing Parts
- By: Lucinda Berry
- Narrated by: Abby Craden
- Length: 6 hrs and 43 mins
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Growing up abandoned by her father and raised by a single mother, Celeste was determined to create the perfect family - but even perfect families have secrets. Her days are filled with a rewarding career, a devoted husband, and her four-year-old daughter. Celeste is the only one who knows the precarious house of cards her family is built upon - until the day her daughter falls critically ill. Then her world quickly spirals out of control, her secret threatening to destroy her marriage, family, reputation, and sanity.
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SPOILER ALERT. Sigh...
- By Kelly on 10-08-20
By: Lucinda Berry
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One Day
- The Extraordinary Story of an Ordinary 24 Hours in America
- By: Gene Weingarten
- Narrated by: Johnathan McClain
- Length: 11 hrs and 50 mins
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On New Year’s Day 2013, two-time Pulitzer Prize-winner Gene Weingarten asked three strangers to, literally, pluck a day, month, and year from a hat. That day - chosen completely at random - was Sunday, December 28, 1986, by any conventional measure a most ordinary day. Weingarten spent the next six years proving that there is no such thing. That Sunday between Christmas and New Year’s turned out to be filled with comedy, tragedy, implausible irony, cosmic comeuppances, kindness, cruelty, heroism, cowardice, genius, idiocy, and much more....
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I'm giving this book more credit for its concept
- By J. F. Boyd on 12-24-19
By: Gene Weingarten
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The Undocumented Americans
- By: Karla Cornejo Villavicencio
- Narrated by: Karla Cornejo Villavicencio
- Length: 4 hrs and 53 mins
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Writer Karla Cornejo Villavicencio was on DACA when she decided to write about being undocumented for the first time using her own name. It was right after the election of 2016, the day she realized the story she'd tried to steer clear of was the only one she wanted to tell. So she wrote her immigration lawyer's phone number on her hand in Sharpie and embarked on a trip across the country to tell the stories of her fellow undocumented immigrants—and to find the hidden key to her own.
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Raw, heartbreaking - we can do better by others
- By RapaciousReader on 04-11-20
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The Serial Killer Whisperer
- How One Man's Tragedy Helped Unlock the Deadliest Secrets of the World's Most Terrifying Killers
- By: Pete Earley
- Narrated by: Alan Sklar
- Length: 13 hrs and 14 mins
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From New York Times best-selling author Pete Earley: the strange but true story of a man who suffers a traumatic brain injury and as a result is given the ability to converse with the world's most terrifying criminals.
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The Banality of Evil
- By Cynthia on 09-08-13
By: Pete Earley
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Trejo
- My Life of Crime, Redemption, and Hollywood
- By: Danny Trejo, Donal Logue
- Narrated by: Danny Trejo, Donal Logue
- Length: 13 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
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On screen, Danny Trejo the actor is a baddie who has been killed at least a hundred times. He’s been shot, stabbed, hanged, chopped up, squished by an elevator, and once, was even melted into a bloody goo. Off screen, he’s a hero beloved by recovery communities and obsessed fans alike. But the real Danny Trejo is much more complicated than the legend.
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The best book ever!
- By Nicolas Rocha on 07-08-21
By: Danny Trejo, and others
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Lay Your Sleeping Head
- The Henry Rios Mysteries, Book 1
- By: Michael Nava
- Narrated by: Thom Rivera
- Length: 7 hrs and 44 mins
- Unabridged
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A completely revised edition of the first Henry Rios mystery, The Little Death, Lay Your Sleeping Head introduces Michael Nava’s singular protagonist, gay Latino criminal defense lawyer Henry Rios. Rios, beset by personal and professional problems, begins a passionate affair with the black sheep heir to a great California fortune who tells Rios an improbable tale of murder and sexual predation in his wealthy family. When the young man is found dead of an apparent drug overdose, Rios begins an investigation that ultimately reveals much more than murder.
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Loved It
- By Leah Brock on 06-20-20
By: Michael Nava
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Angels Burning
- By: Tawni O'Dell
- Narrated by: Susan Bennett
- Length: 10 hrs and 25 mins
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On the surface, Chief Dove Carnahan is a true trailblazer who would do anything to protect the rural Pennsylvanian countryside where she has lived all 50 of her years. Traditional and proud of her blue-collar sensibilities, Dove is loved by her community. But beneath her badge lies a dark and self-destructive streak, fed by a secret she has kept since she was 16.
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It was just ok
- By ckal36 on 06-27-23
By: Tawni O'Dell
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Dragonfly Summer
- By: J.H. Moncrieff
- Narrated by: Natalie Gold
- Length: 7 hrs and 40 mins
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Jo Carter never thought she'd return to Clear Springs, Minnesota. But when the former journalist receives a cryptic note about the disappearance of her friend Sam twenty years before, she's compelled to find out what really happened. During her investigation, she learns another high school friend has died in a mysterious accident. Nothing is as it seems, and Jo must probe Clear Springs' darkest corners and her own painful and unreliable memories to discover the truth - and save herself from the killer who could still be on the hunt.
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Home is not always where the heart is...
- By shelley on 02-15-20
By: J.H. Moncrieff
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Any Man
- A Novel
- By: Amber Tamblyn
- Narrated by: Glenn Davis, Robin Miles, Therese Plummer, and others
- Length: 4 hrs and 33 mins
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In this electric and provocative debut novel, Amber Tamblyn blends genres of poetry, prose, and elements of suspense to give shape to the shocking narratives of victims of sexual violence, mapping the destructive ways in which our society perpetuates rape culture, brilliantly brought to life through a multi-voice performance featuring Glenn Davis, Ben Foster, Marc Maron, Jason Ritter, John Roberts, Russ Tamblyn, Amber Tamblyn, January Lavoy, Phoebe Strole, Robin Miles, Thérèse Plummer, Dan Bittner, James Fouhey, and Michael Crouch.
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I've been finished with this for hours
- By Bill on 06-29-18
By: Amber Tamblyn
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- Rabia
- 09-02-23
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to live, to see the day when the TTI falls.
-I do not believe, that I am the only one.
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- Dana
- 04-24-24
I've never felt more seen or validated.
Thank you Liz, Lioness of Survivorland.
Your work will help so many of us. Thank you.
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- Lauren Durnin
- 09-14-23
Thank you…
It has been many years of trying to explain this to people. No one believes me. I feel so much better knowing other people have holes in their memory. I thought that was just me. And the dreams. They are horrible. I appreciate you so much Liz. You were there for me when we lost Suzanne. You understand. I am so proud of you for doing what many of us have not been able to do…tell our story.
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- Carly Rooks
- 03-18-24
Amazing
My husband went to several TTI. At 37 he really broke down. I’ve been on the hunt for everything I can find to help him. If you haven’t heard of thanks to Calvary in Missouri look it up. You probably you part of the reason it was raided by the fbi ❤️
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- Benj
- 02-05-24
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- Amazon Customer
- 04-10-24
Raw, Painful, Haunting
I am not typically capable of listening to audiobooks due to ADHD and auditory processing disorder. But I stumbled across this book when researching survivor stories and it gripped me from beginning to end. I listened as soon as work ended and late into the night for 2 days straight; then I played it again. The voice actor is perfect for this story. She had the sound of a weathered woman baring her soul. I absolutely recommend this book; but it is not for the faint of heart and if you are a trauma survivor, you will be triggered. So please read with safety measures in peace. But please read it.
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- Tayrrah Ledford
- 05-18-24
Great book
I see you survivor! I hope you are well. Eye opening look into the TTI.
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- M. Ruiz
- 04-08-24
Real and Raw
I made a detailed review but Audible deleted it. So I'll leave it at raw, real, and a wake up call for those that want trauma stories with happy endings wrapped in a pretty bow.
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- Sarah Couture
- 09-06-23
FINALLY! This book is monumental.
I waited impatiently for this book to be released for 3 long months! It didn't disappoint at all, it was amazing! Liz successfully captures the horror, the pain, the heartache and utter despair that haunts every program survivor, even years later. She explains the industry, with all it's wretchedness and corruption. She commemorates her friends beautifully, telling the story of those of us who have passed away due to the long term psychological effects of these destructive institutions. Liz did a fabulous job on this book! I love the honesty, the vulnerability, and the TRUTH, I appreciate her telling it! So brave! Such a wonderful book! Thank you Liz, I feel seen :)
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- Amazon User
- 08-30-23
Must read / listen #iseeyousurvivor♥️
Amazing contribution and testimonial of the hell that is the troubled teen industry. Highly recommended for survivors, therapists, social workers, judges, lawyers, police, and PARENTS! Written and read exceptionally.
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