Unmasking the Pain: A Journey of Trauma and Healing with Barbara Hayward

In this powerful episode of Suicide Zen Forgiveness, host Elaine Lindsay welcomes Barbara Hayward, a medium clairvoyant and spiritual advisor, to share her deeply personal journey of trauma, loss, and healing. From enduring childhood molestation and a traumatic teen pregnancy involving forced adoption, to battling addiction and mental health issues, Barbara recounts how she navigated profound pain and emerged as a remarkable figure in spiritual coaching. Despite facing immense hardships, including severe psychiatric struggles and suicide attempts, Barbara has transformed her experiences into a source of empathy and compassion in her work. The conversation highlights the generational impact of trauma and the healing process, her rediscovery and reunion with her biological son after decades, and the enduring strength that comes from sharing one's story. This episode serves as an inspiring testament to resilience and the human spirit's capacity for forgiveness and connection.

00:00 Mission to End the Silence

00:50 Meet the Guest: Barbara Hayward

01:51 Barbara's Journey Begins

04:18 A Troubled Childhood

07:44 Teenage Struggles and Early Pregnancy

10:52 Facing Family and Societal Pressures

13:44 The Aftermath and Moving Forward

22:54 A Mother's Struggle and Words of Advice

23:34 The Breakdown of a Marriage

23:51 Turning to Alcohol and Meeting Dennis

24:07 Revealing the Truth to the Children

26:07 The Psychiatric Journey

27:32 A New Life in New Zealand

27:54 The Search for Brett Charles

33:47 Reconnecting with a Lost Son

36:20 The Impact of Forced Adoptions

37:50 Reflections and Closing Thoughts

43:59 Outro and Acknowledgements

At around the age of 30 years old, Barbara found herself a single mother with 2 young boys after her marriage had disintegrated. A marriage that right from the beginning was never destined to succeed.

Barbara’s early life was one of polar opposites. There was laughter, fun and a great love of school, years of enjoying been a Marching girl winning lots of medals. Sexual molestation at a very early age, rape at 12 and having a baby taken away from her at birth due to forced adoption at 16. This event broke Barbara from which she has never fully recovered.

Eventually marrying the father of her baby at 20 years old, they had 2 more sons. When her marriage failed when she as 30, she was left to raise 2 quite young sons on her own.

Around this time she met a lady Crystal, who was instrumental in helping Barbara enter a world that she did not even know existed,… The Spiritual world. After 8 years of training with Crystal, her Spiritual journey began. Barbara had by now met a man who was to be her life partner.

Barbara, Denis and her 2 sons found themselves living in New Zealand, far away from Melbourne, Australia.

Barbara’s Spiritual journey embraces her own radio program for 3 years as a clairvoyant, workshops, Seminars, Psychic Fairs, quest speaking at Churches and much, much more.

Barbara and Denis have moved between Australia and New Zealand many times until one day while celebrating her 60th birthday, she received news that her son who was taken was trying to locate her after 43 years

Barbara, now at 71 years old, has begun a new career. Having a very successful Facebook page as well as an up and coming YouTube channel. The Old Girls Spiritual Stuff.

FB facebook.com/theoldgirlsspiritualstuff

YT https://www.youtube.com/@BarbaraHayward-1953