Episodes

  • 14: lovelustfear | terra | i want you to always be available to me
    Jul 24 2024
    At seventeen, Terra is captivated by a charismatic classmate who exploits her need for attention, leading them into a troubling cycle of drug abuse and criminal behavior. Terra's physical addiction to him only serves to deepen the toxicity within their relationship. **This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, murder, suicide, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and drug use. Listener discretion is advised.** chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:42) about terra (02:23) terra’s story (33:25) questions & answers (36:46) closing thoughts (37:43) charity & organizations (38:12) submit your story (38:23) disclaimer quotes “I found myself leaning into the attention whenever I would get it. And then when the attention would stop, I would seek it out.” - Terra “…but then he smoothed things over. He was just so good at explaining everything so good at covering everything up.” - Terra “With him coming into my life with him even bringing the drugs and creating that addiction, it created an addiction in the relationship with him.” - Terra “It made me feel like I had to have my phone on me all the time. I need to answer him right away. I need to, be there for him. And, if I didn't answer that message, then I got punished.” - Terra “I say before you even think about making that comment of ‘she should have left’ or ‘she chose this’ is go and do the research of how hard it is to leave. Go and do the research of what your brain actually looks like when you're in this toxic relationship.” - Terra music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres (001 - 003) and Neon City by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Cybercutie, AlesiaDavina, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (terra) https://seasonofjustice.org https://www.terranewellsurvival.com National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ I'll Take The Stairs Merch 25% of Sale Proceeds go to Season of Justice! https://www.terranewellsurvival.com/shop/page/2/ Book a 1 on 1 call! HTTPS://linktr.ee/terranewell Sign up for the podcasting course! https://coaching.terranewellsurvival.com August 5th Moving Past Trauma Course https://coaching.terranewellsurvival.com/moving-past-trauma-5-week-workshop/ Join Terra in Sedona September 13th-16th 2024! Email Terranewellcoaching@gmail.com Terra’s 30 Day Trauma Journal https://square.link/u/DvXXYN27 Exclusive Content on Patreon! http://patreon.com/Terrasbaddyclub story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Chartable https://link.chtbl.com/lovelustfear Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!
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    39 mins
  • lovelustfear | special announcements | july 2024
    Jul 16 2024
    lovelustfear is being developed as a streaming TV series! (Listen for more details.)

    L.A. Not So Confidential Live Video Q&A with Jake Deptula
    https://www.youtube.com/live/CMkObn9BTc0?si=VGaG0rDPZUGHuKe5

    Story Submission (Podcast & Streaming TV Series)
    E-mail: lovelustfearpod@gmail.com
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    Strictly Stalking Podcast
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083
    https://open.spotify.com/show/5dw1NJIObaOsj0o7JdruVQ

    L.A. Not So Confidential Podcast
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier/id1293032240
    https://open.spotify.com/show/21dpgZ5V9I9m2RI8tB8Nr2

    Thank you so much!
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    1 min
  • 13: lovelustfear | emma | you should be scared
    Jul 10 2024
    Emma seeks comfort in the arms of a former client whose initial charm and good looks give way to his darker traits, trapping her in escalating emotional turmoil and abuse.
    chapters
    (00:00) listen with caution
    (00:16) next on lovelustfear
    (01:29) about emma
    (02:23) emma’s story
    (28:31) questions & answers
    (32:40) closing thoughts
    (33:37) charity & organizations
    (34:07) submit your story
    (34:17) disclaimer
    quotes
    “All in the same week, I lost a dog, a job, a relationship, and a house. It was just like one of those things where your world is completely turned upside down and you're very vulnerable, right?” - Emma
    “I run into Ben again, and Ben is somebody that women do see and say, wow, that guy's very attractive. And, we exchanged numbers and decided to go out for drinks one night… within a couple weeks, he had said, I want you to be my girlfriend.” - Emma
    “He'd always kind of put on this good face for other people and then if there was any sort of stress or something that he perceived as a stress it would set him off.” - Emma
    “My sense of safety around him, I think I was always aware that the day could be a bad day or like, I hope he's not in a bad mood and anything could really put him in a bad mood.” - Emma
    “And I said something like, you're really scaring me, and all of a sudden he goes looks at me and he goes ‘you should be scared’ and he puts his foot on the gas like all the way, you know, ninety miles an hour swerving, screeching, whipping around and I'm just absolutely freaking out.” - Emma
    “I didn't want to give him the power to ruin romantic love for me or the idea of a relationship for me, I wasn't going to do that.” - Emma
    music | sounds
    Music (CC BY 4.0):
    Lost Place Atmospheres (001 & 002) by Sascha Ende
    Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
    Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
    Spacetime by Mountaineer
    stay aware | follow | share (emma)
    Kimberly Weeks
    https://www.thenarcissisticabusecoach.com/
    National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
    Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
    Text: START to 88788
    https://www.thehotline.org/
    https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
    https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
    story submission information
    If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
    submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear
    E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com
    Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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    Spotify
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    Apple
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283
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    35 mins
  • lovelustfear | presents | Ex-Wives Undercover: Liars, Cheaters, & Love Cons
    Jul 3 2024
    The podcast that goes ‘undercover’ to help women understand the seedy tactics of love criminals so you can live happily ever after, Psychopath Free! If you love stories about romance scams, catfishing, cheaters exposed, gaslighting, and people who live double lives, this podcast is right up your alley – where the line between true crime and matters of the heart blurs. Ex-Wives Undercover shares chilling tales of survivors who conquered the ultimate crime of toxic love. Learn to spot the red flags, protect yourself, and find solace in the stories of those who've walked away from the brink. Subscribe now to join our community and become an undercover detective in pursuit of healing and justice. Every Tuesday, the investigation continues.

    EX-WIVES UNDERCOVER: LIARS, CHEATERS, AND LOVE CONS
    Apple Podcasts
    https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/the-trail-went-cold/id1084020770
    Spotify
    https://open.spotify.com/show/5goyIEk4DkTi79WFl0fg29
    Amazon Music
    https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/5f456d64-3863-418f-8359-bbd91cf184ff/ex-wives-undercover-liars-cheaters-love-cons
    Instagram
    https://www.instagram.com/exwivesundercover/
    TikTok
    https://www.tiktok.com/@exwives_undercover
    Website
    https://www.exwivesundercover.com

    Podcast Episode
    Strictly Stalking 164 “Shared Stalker: Ex-Wives Undercover”
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/s4-e164-shared-stalker-ex-wives-undercover/id1494237083
    Podcast Episode
    Ex-Wives Undercover: The Maintenance Man [Part 1 of 2] feat. Jake Deptula
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/juliette-the-maintenance-man-part-1-of-2/id1536067021?i=1000641811492


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    56 mins
  • 12: lovelustfear | debra | i’ve always seemed to attract the crazy type
    Jun 26 2024
    After her marriage is shattered by betrayal, Debra turns to alcohol, descending into addiction. Despite her efforts to maintain sobriety, she becomes entangled in a toxic relationship with an enabler who subjects her to emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control. chapters (00:00) listen with caution (00:16) next on lovelustfear (01:38) about debra (02:18) debra’s story (27:03) questions & answers (34:50) closing thoughts (35:36) charity & organizations (36:15) submit your story (36:26) disclaimer quotes “...but the end of that marriage is where I learned to equate chemicals with avoiding pain…alcohol became a problem pretty quickly for me.” - Debra “I just like continued to choose worse and worse partners along the way because I lost my self-respect.” - Debra “So, within record time, I'm like fired from my great job, already have given up the house that I had just re established. And so, at this point, I'm pretty realizing that I'm dependent on him.” - Debra “Anything I told him, any vulnerability I shared with him would become his weapon the next time. It would be whatever he would control me with or, something to make me feel bad about.” - Debra “And the closure will come when you finally see you are enough. Nobody else is going to make you more, you are fine as you are. and it's not something that you can just read a self-help book and get there, but you know, there's people that can help. Help you to see it.” - Debra guest links | debra The Alternative Hair Alchemist | Podcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/alternative-hair-alchemist-a-podcast-about/id1627588998 music | sounds Music (CC BY 4.0): Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (https://incompetech.com/) Other Music and Sound Effects by Cybercutie, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay Spacetime by Mountaineer stay aware | follow | share (debra) National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism https://www.niaaa.nih.gov/alcohols-effects-health/niaaa-middle-school/helpful-resources The mission of the National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism is to generate and disseminate fundamental knowledge about the adverse effects of alcohol on health and well-being, and apply that knowledge to improve diagnosis, prevention, and treatment of alcohol-related problems, including alcohol use disorder, across the lifespan. National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365) Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233) Text: START to 88788 https://www.thehotline.org/ https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/ story submission information If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below. submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/ subscription links Chartable https://link.chtbl.com/lovelustfear Amazon Music https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/b06d0ea8-cb29-4c3a-98e6-0249d84df748/lovelustfear Spotify https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec Apple https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283 RSS feed https://audioboom.com/channels/5125912.rss Want to hear more? Whatever app you’re listening on, just rate us and/or leave us a comment or review. Thank you for your support!
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    37 mins
  • lovelustfear | presents | Crime Salad
    Jun 25 2024
    Ashley and Ricky, the dynamic duo behind Crime Salad, bring their unique perspectives and captivating storytelling to unravel some of the most intriguing criminal cases. With each episode, they dive deep into the details, providing listeners with a thought-provoking exploration of the darker side of humanity. Join them every week as they serve up a chilling dish of true crime that will leave you craving for more.

    Apple
    https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/crime-salad/id1457141569
    Spotify
    https://open.spotify.com/show/3i7DxU0YyDnaMVdDrF4fpG
    Amazon Music
    https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/e46bf5f7-2c1e-4b53-8fe0-b98da37c20df/crime-salad
    Instagram
    https://www.instagram.com/crimesaladpodcast
    Facebook
    https://www.facebook.com/crimesaladpodcast/

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    2 mins
  • lovelustfear | special announcements | june 2024
    Jun 20 2024
    Thank you all for listening and subscribing to lovelustfear. I'm so grateful to all the brave guests who have joined the show and shared their important stories with us.

    If you're listening and eager for more dating and relationship stories, please consider supporting the show by rating and leaving a review wherever you listen.

    Listeners on Spotify can engage with one-click polls after each episode and share their own dating experiences and thoughts on the episodes in the comments.

    https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec

    And I'm excited to announce lovelustfridays, a panel discussion series available here every other Friday where I invite previous guests and experts for an extended exploration of their stories and give you a chance to submit any questions you have.

    For video previews, check out our Instagram https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/

    And if you'd like to share your dating and relationship story, I want to hear it.
    You can reach me at lovelustfearpod@gmail.com or: https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
    https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear

    Thank you so much!
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